Five hundred and twenty tears.

NAIL QUEEN HIRING YO'

2012-02-08T02:29:00.000+08:00

Hi darlings, i'm back! ;)

I'M SO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING. I think this page has not much views as before already.. Sigh!

Anyway, for students or anyone whose dropped out/has no life, interested in manicure and wants to work a slack job. ( Only for ladies ) Must be able to work 6 days per week, working hours are from 12pm-8pm. ITS A FUCKING SLACK JOB I SWEAR. Please contact me or drop me a msg at my formspring box. Or google "Nail Queen" and give us a call. Or you can just walk-in at Far East Plaza #02-109 Nail Queen. For any age from 14 years old. And if my boss asks if $750 basic pay is alright for you, say NO. I regretted so much for just agreeing on the $750 pay. Try negotiating for another $100, don't say I posted this please. And you MUST have at least basic knowledge on manicure. I'll be training you~ ;)

I'll be leaving this job on the 13th Feb and going for a make-up course at YMCA. So yaaaaa, if I leave, no one's gna work at Nail Queen anymore. Hehehe. And I'll be hopping over to a hairsalon shop to work right opposite of my shop to work once I start my course. ^_^

I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! <3

I love this girl up there can't believe she actually dropped a few tears for me. So touched ^_^

Ok, I'm gna sleep early tonight. Bye! x

Ugly

2011-12-31T12:12:00.001+08:00

Since the day I met you, no one else is even

worth thinking of.

Yesterday, headed to work at FEP (Nail Queen). Slacked for 6 hours. Talked to Peiwei and Jann, watched dramas on my iPhone also. Guess I'll be able to hang on to this job for a long while! After work, headed back home at str8 KO on ma' bed.

Anyone wanna come accompany me while I'm working? :( I can entertain you when there isn't customers. And there's really very little customers there. I get damn bored there, even thou' I can get to use laptop and all those there. Sigh~

Its 2012 tomorrow. This year really passed fuckin' fast. Can't really remember how I spent this year. Anyway, time for new years' resolutions again!

x Hang on to a job for half a year and work hard.
x Fucking control this cb attitude of mine.
x Save $$$$ for overseas trip.
x Bring my mum and dad out for dinner & etc. (I have never done this in my life before...)
x Bring uncle ryan out to eat. (To repay him for all he has done for me in the past.)
x Be a good girl~
x KEEP MY ROOM & CLOSET TIDY FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING YEAR.
x Quit drinking and smoking (I really doubt i can fulfill this..)
x Last with my dearest cutest loveliest boyfriend ♥

After posting my 5th resolution, I really miss him lahhhh. Now I have to depend on myself for money and clothes and my bills and all the things I want! Nobody to pamper me anymore. Nobody to call when I want to shop. Nobody to call to drive me home or to the place i wna go. Sigh.... :(

Now that I have a full-time job........ I have no fucking idea how to balance my friends, bf and work altogether. I mean, i'll end work at 7/8PM. AND ONLY ONE FUCKING DAY OFF TO REST. Ideas anyone? :(

Gna get around $1-2k next month, plus my cny money. Hafta pay off $200 for my phone bill, get a new laptop or maybe gna buy an iphone 4s for my dad first. Ok why am I posting this.........

Ciaos. x

2011-12-30T01:21:00.001+08:00

Guys can never understand how much pain they can cause a girl just with one comment.

So, ok. I've been sleeping quite alot nowadays, but starting from 2012, can't laze around whole day anymore. Found a full-time work at far east plaza, in a manicure shop. Finally something meaningful to do, instead of fast-food restaurants.

People always leave, that's for sure. Sooner or later, maybe tomorrow, or next week, you'll find yourself back to square one. All alone.

Met up with zhenmin on christmas. Walked around town. :)

Had lunch together at takashimaya, at yoshinoya.

Headed over to scape to see whether there was flea. But quite a few stalls only. Went up the open space area and took pix~

We headed back to toapayoh and went The One to meet malcolm and ben actually.

Coincidentally, my son, yifeng and wayne was there too? But they were going town. When we just came back from there. -_- So yaaaa, malcolm went home to bath with ben. And the other group went their own way. So me and zhenmin went blk 1.

Ayers was there, waiting for junkai. Anson came over awhile after that. When jk came down, him, ayers and anson left. Then me and zm saw kellyn. And decided to go over lorong 8 market to find zm's friend, Alice and Max. Slacked with them at 213. Malcolm and ben came overrrrr, so yeah. Played truth or dare. But, I guess everyone kept choosing dare. Lol.

So when night fell, roy (some guy i met on maple which is younger than me i think?) and his friend wanted to see me? I was like....... lol ok ^2u. So they came and sat on other table, while we girls just continued talking w/o even bothering about them. Hahaha.

After awhile, we just left. Since alice wanted to drink bbt. And went blk 1 to slack instead. Left, me, zm, tiff, max and alice there. Weisheng, malcolm and ben came over awhile and passed me a bunch of paper flowers made by weijie. So yeah, left blk 1 at 9pm and headed to interchange alone to meet xiekang and wayne. The rest (ahkiat, anson, ayers, junkai, yifeng) came and meet us halfway towards safra. So......... i got sprayed? Sigh. Standard, always getting bullied. :(

After those idiots had fun spraying, went to safra watched them play pool. Vivian and kenneth came over too. Didn't really get to play with vian, cos they keep come over disturb!! LOL.

Left safra at 12AM, while the rest went lan. Me and my son headed back to central ourselves. Hahaha, ok done posting about christmas!

Working tomorrow! 12pm - 6pm. Might be heading over to cine to meet xiekang & co. :)
So yeaaaaaaah, ok bye! Happy advanced new year btw. Doubt i'll be able to post till 2012. x.

Life still goes on.

2011-12-15T03:26:00.003+08:00

Considering to revive this blog...... Should I? But I'm a little busy these few days. Outings/interviews/trainings/meet-ups. Huhuhu. :(

Anyway, had a P6.2'09 gathering a few days back. Jacky, shawn, weixiang, claire, cheryl, aifang, syahindah was there. Seems like this year, only a few people bothered. Still remember, during that year everyone said they'll all always come back kcs and visit. Those naive moments..... Only when we're all promoted, then we realised we all made empty promises. Hahaha. Nevermind, that was our young days.

Monday - I went for my manicure training, kok kim accompanied me over. He sat there for 2-3hours straight. Such a good boy right! Painted his nails in red, but was removed in the end. And I had to use one of his feet to demo on washing legs. Wts..... Fucking funny la. After my training, walked around town. That idiot even made me go in a Gucci shop, which was for rich & high class people.... So not for me la. Can't even maintain inside! After awhile, decided to head to MBS. I guess i was a lucky star that day, we found some waterwork show to entertain us for awhile. After that, we sat one side to smoke and talk~ Till 11pm+, walked back to the mrt station and went home! Still in dilemma, whether to work at clarke quay (which is a busy job, but high pay) or far east plaza (slack but the pay's lower). Sigh.

Tuesday - Skipped training, cause I overslept and was too tired and lazy...... Met my son at arnd 5pm, headed to 222 to buy his cigarettes and blk 1 to meet junkai and ayers. I bused to interchange to fetch kok kim, and went safra to meet the guys and vivian. Watch them play pool, and vivian watched me get owned by some asshole. Sighhhhh. Accompanied him to makan, and he sended me off at my house downstairs.

Wednesday - Skipped training AGAIN. Ok i seriously cannot maintain this attitude of mine. No wonder I can't stay long in a job. No self-discipline at all...... Too spoilt by my mom. Anyway, my boyfriend came over my house outside. Hahahahah damn shocked, cause he was scared i was upset/angry. Sweet qtpie~ 10 more days to our fifth month. Never thought i'll still be able to celebrate a third/fourth/fifth month in a relationship. I thought I was a hopeless playgirl. LOL. But ya, luckily I have this boyfriend to give in every single time, even though it wasn't his fault. Cute or what sia. Hehehe.

Heading down far east plaza later on at 2pm. And meeting yanching and my dear felicia tomorrow to clarke quay. Hope everything goes as planned. :)

Suddenly thought about that night, when i looked at the river...... I had thoughts of drowning myself and just ending everything. Really, no joke. I don't even know why I had that idea. Then suddenly I thought about how heartbrokened my mother would be, so yeah, nothing happened. Thinking back, it really was fucking scary... Am I going crazy? :/

Here's my promise made tonight.

2011-10-04T07:24:00.002+08:00

I think this time i fell even deeper than i did, 2 years ago. The thought of losing him already can make me cry. What if it really happens? Suicide? lol. :/

I'm really sorry for making you dissapointed, sad, angry and all those. I really didn't mean to. But i really really really love you alot. ♥

I hate this part right here.

2011-09-26T02:16:00.003+08:00

I'M FEELING LIKE SHIT, SERIOUSLY SHIT. FUCKING NUMB OK. GOD DAMN IT. I FEEL LIKE CRYING. I CAN'T EVEN SLEEP THE PAIN AWAY. ZZZZZ.

I feel like having peiyi or christine or kf around when i'm feeling like that...... )':

How did things turn out this way?

2011-09-18T22:40:00.003+08:00

Neglected this page cause of maple. Hahahha, i'm stuck at lvl 95 for two days. Cool or cool? No feel to train at all. But i want my 4th job advancement.......... Fml. I haven't went zak and scar yet. Stupid and noob much. Ok, i have no idea why i'm posting about maple. LOL. Ok enough.

Things came to a stage, when its to late for regrets. No matter how much i want it back, it won't come back for sure. Yup, overseas, taitaidays, universal studio, night safari, pool, dinner times, steamboat, outings, h2h talks, fights, those biantai days. All gone.............. Now all is left is awkwardness. Hahaha. In the end, all of us gained nothing. Okay can.

2 more week to EOY. 2 fucking weeks. Study or never study, also confirm know result already. Prepare to quit school? Sigh~ :/

Ok bye, xx.

Can I go back to those simple days? When only falling down hurts.

2011-09-01T17:25:00.004+08:00

Went school. Celebration was ok? Fuckin' high.......... Hah. Urm, went back khengcheng with chelsea and claire. Talked to alot of teachers and people. Saw someone i shouldn't see too. ALMOST CRIED. Almost... So er, walked around school with cheryl, aifang, claire and chelsea. After school, went canteen. Had a kind of 6.2'09 "gathering" with mrs anthony. 2pm+ went out of school, saw xiao gary! But he totally ignore me. Didn't see me i think? Heheh. Then makan with chelsea and claire. Then went 205 find cheryl, aifang, wanping, javier, elvis, derek, hendra, weixiang, aloy, jiazhen, shawn, jinping and jacky. Felicia they all also down there. Hahhaha, played bball with 2009'ians. Fucking funnnn, rly like 2009 that time! The package thing, cannot touch girls all those. 4pm+ headed home with chelsea and claire. Came home, those fuckers started to kp and i shouted at my whole family. Best kind of way to welcome their child back home from school. Very good, i like. Remain that way everyday ok. I'll fucking slap you in the face. No worries. :)

So urm, you saw me i saw you. Awkward.......? :/

I know this is the part where the end starts.

2011-08-24T03:35:00.002+08:00

Mapled yesterday, slept at arnd 4am. Woke up at 5am++ realizing that one of my uniform's washing and another one at christine's house. Malcolm came over and find me, went down pass him cig then went back up again. Then decided not to attend school in the end. Waited for dad to wake up, then went to sleep at 10am? Woke up at 11pm. So er, high chance i'm going school later on. Ok bye. :)

Numb.

2011-08-21T06:34:00.007+08:00

Ya ok, so i'm back. But this post's just to rant about my past la ok........... I just, recalled all those stuffs and had alot of flashbacks. Got the urge to read back all my previous post. Actually, i didn't exactly read ALL. Read one period of time, when i was really, "crazily in love" or should i put it as "having my first love"? Ok it was really l o v e. Not kidding. I was abit over obsessed too. Now thinking back, i feel abit scared about myself. I did commit alot in a relationship before. I really did. But i guess it was abit too over? Till suddenly, i just started flirting guys and then i drifted with him, then i felt like he didn't care when it was actually my fault. (And its becoming a part of my love cycle right now.... I just don't know how to maintain a relationship anymore.) So then things got worser, we got seperated, i got hurt, i almost went back to cutting myself.... But luckily i didn't. I swear i can still remember that pain till now. No idea why, right after we broke up, i changed alot. I started skipping school. I felt damn different. Then getting guys as replacement. I really felt like a whore those days. No joke. Its like the old me is gone, and the new one is so cold. Damn cold....... I don't even trust anything at all. The current me, i don't really know. Problems after problems nowadays. Really feel like shutting everything and everyone out and just be alone.

After suffering so much pain, i don't know if its making me stronger or its just because i'm used to it that it becomes numb. Ok, stupid post for today. I just wanted to rant.

I don't know what to do...... I feel like i'm losing alot of things these few days....

Do we really have to lose things in life, just for better things to come? If thats so, why don't i feel like things are getting better. I lost too many people already. And every year gets worse for me..

Sigh ok bye...

//counting down, four more days! ^.^ ♥

All I have is you.

2011-08-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

Suddenly urge to blog........... So last night heard from kf that weilong's in deep shit again. Ok can. SIGH. One come out, another one go in isit? Always missing someone one leh. Pray hard nth will happen to him la... Staying at home mapling with some idiot. Forever pangseh me then expect me to find him knnbccb. Dulan ah k. Hahahha ok. I miss py. I miss my boyf. I miss kf. I miss schl clique. I miss ben. I miss czm. I miss my kor. AIYA THIS MISSING THING WILL GO ON FOREVER ONE SIA. FINE BYE.

I'm staying in love with you.

2011-08-19T22:47:00.003+08:00

Heyhihai. Didn't attend school today. Too tired, slept for damn looooong.

Yesterday, wokeup and went school. Didn't have PE. Instead huili, peiwei and vivian started playing with my hair cause my seat was taken by hanis. Heh. And during afternoon assembly, i got damn mother fucking high. Screaming like mad k. Managed to sabo hanis on stage to dance, hahaha sibei farni. After school, went for learning journey at singapore river. But, me vivian huili peiwei and zared went off to citylink. Hahahah ate sushi. In a aircon place. While the others are upstairs under the hot sun. LUL. Went back school, really no more energy left. Lied down in the toilet and lepak in school with vivian. Left school with her and christine at arnd 5:30pm? But we took almost one hour to reach home......... Really no strength to even walk. Hahahha.

I'm so hungry k. How? :'(

And I think I'm becoming zhiyong/edwingoh-crazy already.... omg.

OH YAAAAAA, KIMHYUNJOONG CAME TO SINGAPORE TODAY, i don't know if he's still in singapore or not. but, fuck my life for not waking up and going down causeway point to see him in real life! Fucking depressed, zzzzzzzzz. Ok bai.

Praying to a god that I don't believe in. I'm falling to pieces.

2011-08-18T04:47:00.003+08:00

uhuhsiol. hi! urm, ok............. i damn bored la. its like fucking 5:24am now. almost school time!!!! lazy to prepare for school seriously. feel like mapling whole day! ok jk. there's excursion to sg river from 2:30pm - 5:30pm. we've been there before la walao. why singapore so small?! zzzzzzz. pri school always go science centre. secondary school always go sg river isit? ok can. so budget la sia. going to play basketball during PE lesson today later on too! can't wait. i rly miss 2009 leh. sigh, old story again. tsk. ok fine. looking forward to teacher's day to go back kcs!! heh. er so shall go start preparing for school now! bye. xx

Hug me tight.

2011-08-17T01:36:00.005+08:00

ONE POST BEFORE I SLEEP.

I went schl "yesterday". Was kind of fucked up during school hours. I SWEAR I DIAO ALOT OF PPL, IM SRYYYYYYYYYY. Rly bad mood. Heh. So er, at least in the morning, hanis made me laugh quite hard, during flag raising somemore. Of all times la srsly..... Damn hard to maintain la omg. I feel retarded. Ppl might think I'm laughing at myself. HAH. But i was fucking hyper after school. Abit scared of myself too. Maybe due to laughing to much with riwaj's clique, vivian, sylvia and christine. Heheheh. Ok. Not attending schl tmr, or shld I say later? Too tired. Cannot tank another day already. Shall go on thurs instead, since i promised that stupid hanis already.

Oh and y'know On the fringe that 9pm show on weekdays? I got zhiyong's twitter account! Aka Edwin goh's twitter la. Hahahahahaha all thanks to christinegohkt! ♥

See pooh up there?! Been hugging pooh for about 1y7m without fail y'know. heh! ;)

HELLOKITTY, RINGS AND HEELS. CHIO OR CHIO?! OMGGGGGG. *melts*

OKEI FINE, TIME TO SLEEP BAI. xoxo

Doushite.

2011-08-16T01:54:00.003+08:00

Christmas at mbs. Christine's birthday chalet. Playing pool at safra almost everyday. Sister's steamboat. That day when we fetched my mom and daddy ryan from the airport. Random outings together. Having dinner tgt. Vivian's birthday. Raping each other. Quarrels. H2h talks. And lastly your birthday........ You really want to give everything all up? All those laughter and all those memories. We all had so much quarrels to get this close. So this quarrel's going to break us apart? Just because of her words.... You don't even trust us. You rather trust someone thats not from our clique. First time i cried for a friend. A friend i lost so suddenly..... I really don't know what to do. Maybe you'll think you're not impt to us. But how do you even know that when you're not even us? If you're not impt, why will we still waste our tears for you.......? I really miss the old you. Don't ignore us please? Sigh.

Alot of problems, rly stress. I don't know what to do at all. Ok forget it bye.

Just go away.

2011-08-15T02:32:00.002+08:00

NO IDEA WHY I'M POSTING AGAIN................. But ya, hi. I miss my old hair up there ^!!! :(

Read thru alot of things about last two years.... Saw my fs and someone's fs, I last time rly like gan ji teh hong only leh. Fierce rabak. AND I SAW SO MANY HELLO KITTY STUFFS OMG. And the first person that came in my mind was daddy ryan. But i don't think i can call him to buy anything for me anymore? No one to pamper me!!! Seems like everywhere also keep saying that i miss daddy ryan uh. Hahaha. Hope he sees this and calls me!!!!!! HEHE. ♥♥♥♥

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Satan will play with you hard. Karma's a bitch// what goes around comes around.

2011-08-14T22:11:00.003+08:00

stayed at baby's house for two days. hahahaha, damn cute la. toothbrush need him to rinse for me, then put toothpaste. LOL. then after washing hands, he help me dry hand. after eating, help me clean mouth. sweet ah? hahahah. after that went inter, met christine and vivian awhile then he sended me home. ♥

so, on top are all clique's pix......... i miss alot of things nowadays ah. kcs, daddy ryan, clique, blk9, batok and those people still inside... :/

i feel like ordering mac!!!!!! ZZZZ ok forget it. shld i go back carl's jr and work? hehe. so, i'm gg school tmr? sigh................. abit no feel. but bobian still need go. jy sheena! hahahha.

oh and, fuck you pubor. fucking two faced asshole. you watch out la k, go and play with Satan sua?! cb. ka ppl jiaowei very fun right? i'll show you whats fun. making ppl dulan, you very happy yes? seeing us like that, you're watching a good show right. not for long k dog. if you learnt to fucking stfu and stop telling stories, maybe all these won't happen to you. so don't blame me. :)

ok bai, xoxo.

Right back where I started.

2011-08-11T03:42:00.002+08:00

hi, ily. thanks for always making me laugh with ur retardedness. muack. ^.^

moodswing? sigh idk. talked to dalian! damn long since i talked to those whom i met at blk9. miss those stupid crazy days uh. srsly i was fucking crazy there....... i feel damn stupid and childish leh rly. hahaha. nvm, forget it. i feel like calling daddy ryan agn. used to depend on him too much already. now idk what to do. if i call him, mom will fucking scold the shit out of me. -_- ok zzzz. tmr, go schl. forget about everything. sit there at stare at people. fucking no life. lol.

today, went chelsea's house at 4/5pm? hahahha had alot fun la. kc and baby came over at 10pm plus then went home at either 12 or 1am. kk, bye.

Once lost, forever gone.

2011-08-10T04:08:00.006+08:00

ANNYEONG HASEYO ! been watching drunken to love you these days. cried and laughed alot while watching. hahahaha, oh ya. suddenly thought about daddy ryan, mummy's ex. miss him so much......... although i hated him like mad when i was young. but nevermind i don't really care. LOL. but i really miss him!!!!!! he used to call me for nothing, talk to me. ask me how am i, where am i, eat already ornot. then when i moodswing and angry or sad, he'll be the one comforting me. buy whatever i want. take me out for dinner randomly. come and fetch me no matter how late it was. he fucking treats me like a princess la. i think i can write a compo about what he does already. hehehe. my real dad also not as sweet as him lor! i feel like crying. hope and pray hard mom will like, go back with him? i miss shopping like mad with him and mom! but like abit impossible already. tsk. now i hate my mom and her current boyf. zzzzz. this habit can never change man. every new boyfriend she has, i will hate one leh. so irritating lor, change for what. haiyo! so now, her boyf's overseas. i have no idea whether is he coming to singapore ornot. she no boyf = no money take from another person. sighhhhh. ok, don't think wrong! i don't miss daddy ryan cause of $$$ ok. i just really miss him. :(

8/8/11, went to school, celebrated gabriel's birthday at christine's house. i don't know why i like fucking noisy and high during the steamboat. i kept talking and talking and talking......... LOLLLL. cute right? ok fake. so lazy to post already. oh and, should i like cut my fringe? been so fucking god damn long since i cutted my fringe! ok, not really that long la..... but should i?! ahhhhhhhhhhh. ok fine. nvm. bye.

Phobia from all those pain.

2011-08-08T01:23:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to say............................. sigh.

ok, back to watch show. bye.

Happy 14th birthday chelsea. ♥

2011-08-05T04:26:00.003+08:00

CHELSEA LIM XIN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAAAAAAAAAAAAAR. :)

I don't know if you'll see this ornot leh. But still, hi, i love you very much. Hahahah. Don't always keep make me laugh like mad k. Love you love you muack!

So er, I just woke up cause I remembered I haven't posted. Sorry baby if you see this!!! I just want post for her only k. Ok, going back sleep right now. Bye! xx

Cherish every moment we're in denial.

2011-08-03T05:08:00.001+08:00

HEI HEI. I'm back to maple. ♥w♥

Fm ex maplers are almost gone. Left with ken, kundian, glen, yuwei (woniu♥♥♥) and some other ppl which I didn't even know that existed in my bl..... LOL. Whr r the gurls? :( I'm going to school l8r. Ending at 2:30PM, should I go? Fml. I'm so hungry. Ok bai!

Doubts.

2011-08-01T02:23:00.009+08:00

(Pix above are randomly chose. All with clique!!!! ♥♥♥♥)

Be glad I'm spamming photos.

Cause I don't know when's the next time I'm going to post again. Hehe. :)

Feel like asking mom to go back m'sia again, then when she comes back, the whole clique fetch her again. Miss that day so much!!!! Hahaha, especially that day when we went for fish spa on vivian's birthday. I miss alot of things right now. I miss that day, steamboat at chelsea's house, when most of us were drunk. Sibei cute la. Hahaha. I miss all our clique's outings..... :(

7th month already. I saw black cats all around my house downstairs carpark.......... scary can. Luckily mom's going to accompany me the whole night, unless her boyfriend's gna ask her to sleep early. But, still can't go sleep. Scared I can't wake up later on for school. No idea why I'm going school later on also. LOL. Give mdm see catch for skirt again. Standard la srsly. Its like a mother fucking skirt length is going to affect my studies? What is this la really?!?!! Oh, not forgetting, can the old readers like come back to this blog? I get damn depressed with my number of views now you know. Like, my heart will shatter when I see the number decrease by SOOOOOOOOO much. Heartbreaking leh!!!!! Sigh.

2:28AM, I've been trying to revive my audi and maple since 9pm and its still not working. Ok can. So now, I really don't know what I'm going to do till 6AM. Sit here, rot, stare at screen? The fuck.

I'm alone leh nowwwwwww. I hear abit of sounds only, my heart starts to beat damn fast. Someone come my house save me can??????? I think sooner or later kena heart attack sial. Ok la touchwood LOL. This post like long only right!

Ok i love myself alot. clique more. but, ivanho mosttttt ♥. Bye. xoxo

Beginning.

2011-07-27T01:58:00.002+08:00

Hello!!! Sorry for not updating. Didn't attend schl for the whole of last week. I feel guilty. Sigh. Anyway, I love my baby alot alot! Hahhaha. Rly want see him again. But I like forever damn paiseh when I see him leh!!! So long since I felt this way. Hehe. Going school later on I think. Pray hard I'll be able to wake up. I guess that idiot's asleep already. Shall go sleep too! Goodnight. :)

Drifttttttttttttttt..

2011-07-10T16:32:00.003+08:00

I think I've drifted with alooooooooooot of people......................

2008, I drifted with felicia and the seniors like agnes, vanessa, vivien they all and more~

2009, I think I drifted with lohkimyan, candice, leon, charmaine, joe and all the kcs people. (eg. shawn, yenkhey, jinping, jacky, yao, anzoe, yingjie, aifang, javier, elvis, weixiang, derek, malcolm and alot alot alot more.)

2010, blk 9 people and rycaa's clique ppl and so many more!!!!!

Some of them totally lost contact. Sad k, damn sad. Ok, this is random bye.

Nightmares.

2011-07-10T15:22:00.008+08:00

ANNYEONG. ^.^v

Kekekeke, currently at chelsea's house. I don't understand why nowadays, people keep adding and they don't even know you for 3 hours, and they say they want to jio you. What is this. Like feelings over the internet or 'thru texting = true love meh. Talk cock only k. Disgusted leh rly. Whenever I'm busy, everyone starts texting me. When I'm fuckin' free, NO TEXTS AT ALL. Sigh k nvm. Claire's coming over l8r on. And one more day till my baby christine comes back!!!! Excited much. I think I'm gna give family-day a miss today. Lazy to go home............ Sorry papa and mama if you see this. WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU BOTH K LOVE YOU MUACK.

So, might be going school on monday. But its, most likely not going to happen. I've no idea why. Hehehehe. Confirm going on wednesday, I love music lessons k. Oh and, should I take POA or Art? D&T seems damn stress to me. And I'm going to choose geog! Hate history. Sucks k.

I'm in love with Jerry yan. He's so sexycutehandsome. So I'm ditching kimhyunjoong now..... HEHE.

Realized I haven't been updating posts with pix. So empty. SIGH. MY MACBOOK'S TAKING RLY FOREVER. I have no idea when are they gna make time to buy my comp. It's so long, I've been waiting for almost a month. Fml. And I don't know why I keep using fml. Tsk.

Going down to fetch junhao sooooooooon. Will TRY to update often. Click on my nuffnang ads k. Bye! xx

Begged, cried, hurted. Got back dissapointment again and again.

I've learnt my lesson.

Will never trust, believe and love.

It's better if we don't speak at all.

2011-07-09T19:18:00.004+08:00

Sorry for not updating! Christine's not in sg, coming back on monday. And I'm starting work next wednesday. Heheheh, hope nothing goes wrong. Been a happygirl throughout the past few days! Slowly accepting the fact and letting go. :)

So er, meeting chelsea for din later? Okeeeey, bye! xx

Ask just one more time, I'll come back. Just waiting for you to pop the question....

2011-06-30T22:29:00.002+08:00

Hellooooo. School's reopened, I'm still in mass holiday mood. Mom got her ipad2, but my macbook's really taking forever to come to me. Damn shag. Hahahaha anyway, past two days went out with kf & co. :)
Haven't been going school. I really think I cmi leh. Shall prepare to fail EOY bah? Sigh. Hope tmr will have feel for schl. I really need to start attending already...... And can't wait to go work, with work + school and all those, I won't have time to think about those unhappy stuffs. 4 more days. No idea why I'm still counting down. Pathetic. Ok, bai.

You made me lose all trust. You made me believe all guys are the same again..

2011-06-26T16:17:00.003+08:00

Deleted, unfollowed. Ignored. Decided to let go of those 2months memories. Don't want to get hurt twice. Unless he really proves that I can trust him. Then I'll fall in love again.... Shall concentrate on studies for the time being. Hope I can move on successfully... Really fuckin' pain. Damn pain. I really don't know why, this time it hurts the most. Cried my whole heart out. Hope it works. Bye.

[Editted.]
Realized I can't do it. :(

Dilemma.

2011-06-26T12:42:00.000+08:00

Empty......

I miss you so much, my eyes hurts from crying, my head hurts from too much thoughts of you...

2011-06-24T00:01:00.003+08:00

Sick...... Down with fever. :(
Anyway, I'm currently at sehlah's house! Aka sarah la ok. Ben and kf are here tooooo! Watching some retarded ghost show. I can hear the fucking creepy sounds over here. Whole day they've been forcing me to drink water! Almost every 15 mins hafta run to the toilet leh really. I cannot tahan those three idiots too. Keep haolian their hair. Cause theirs really fucking golden brown. While mine? Not that obvious as them cause of school. Then one by one keep "what's school? can eat?" Like jealous only..... Just now before watching the ghost show, played truth or dare. THEN THIS BEN DAMN ASS I SWEAR. Ok I also shy to say out. Forget it. Going home soon after the show ends. Then tmr going junguang's house find him when he bookout from army. ^.^

Although we're talking. I still feel empty without you....
I'm sick, but why no advises like "getwellsoon" or "drinkmorewater" from you?

So, you're gonna come back soon. Should I believe or.....

2011-06-22T13:52:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, met christine buy cig then met xiekang erzi and junkai. Headed to cine, went arcade. Saw x.gary...... Then caught greenlantern at 3PM plus. While buying popcorn damn funny, I almost laughed till I rolled on the floor. Hehe! After movie, went to smoke then went back toapayoh. Wanted to find malcolmmmmm. But in the end, never. Tsk. Slacked till 9pm plus, erzi and jk left. Me and christine had h2h talks till 10PM plus, then we went mac eat. After that, we went her house downstairs there the big staircase sit awhile while I smoke. Then got this guy who wanted christine's number. Damn funny I swear. LOLOL. Then I help her give! Hehehehe. After that, we walked off. Halfway another on bike came then I also thought he wanted christine's number also. Then he was like "no no red shirt one, got boyf anot?" I jitao anyhow say I have HAHAHA. Ok la, enough crap. Went her mom's house ton, then woke up at 12PM. Went makan, then homed!

Damn excited for tmr can ornot. AFTER TWO MONTH HE FINALLY CONTACTED ME AFTER HE MIA FROM ME THE MOMENT HE CAME OUT. :( and his excuse was he want wait till his hair grow first then let me see him. Wtf right!!!!!! Make me worry so long.......... Tmr outing with sarah, ben and kf. Happygirlhappygirl. Then two more days going pick junguang up, can see his botak head! Hahahaha. Ok idk why I from yesterday high till now. :O
Ok ok, byeee. ^.^

Dreamt that you lied. Dreamt that you're gone. Dreamt that you never came back. That dream was fucking realistic..... Now I'm scared.

If it's meant to be, it will be.

2011-06-20T20:22:00.004+08:00

So, everything ended on the 15th June 2011, 0628AM. should've known. That this day would come anytime. I felt really lost. Like, I'm a dead person alive. Like, I had nothing else to think of but him. How am I suppose to show that I'm living a happier life without him. I don't even know where to start. 72 days. Memories. Happiness. Tears. Gone, in two words. I admit, I used him at first. To forget about someone else. I really never thought I'll fall so deep. But by the time I know that, he's gone. With another girl. And all I can say is "last long". Even though, there's really alot of people there for me this time. But all I wanted was him. I would just cry everywhere when I think of him. My forth finger really feels so empty. Mummy and daddy said I shouldn't wait. Christine's mummy said I should just give up. I really wished it was easy like how they said. 2009, we met. 2010, we got closer and got tgt for 2 weeks. This year 2011, we patched. Two months after, separated again. Fate....? It's like every year. Almost same month. I'm sorry if I kept on not meeting you. I'm sorry if I kept making you angry. I guess your new girlf won't do the same mistakes as I did right? Stay happy with her...

I haven't been eating properly for the fifth day. Mass loss of appetite. Sigh.

Nowadays, even if I go out with guys he doesn't like. I don't have to ask for permission anymore. I can't bite him anymore.
Even that 1% of trust in love is gone... Maybe she really treats him and loves him better and much more than me. Let go......? When I made up my mind, I see his name again. I really don't know what do to. First time, even when I go out, I can't smile that much. Even my laughter seems so unconvincing. Please don't give me false hopes saying you'll come back if you don't plan to.... At least I can let you go easier.

Goodbye 4th.... 组你永远心副。希望她会好好地爱你和照顾你。:)

Everyday, the same thing always happens between us.

2011-06-14T19:14:00.002+08:00

10th June.
Was either I stayed at home and rot or I went out with mom. Forgot!

11th June.
Vivian came over my house at 9AM+. Slept till 2/3pm together then headed to blk 4 dabao prata for chelsea then headed to her house. Claire, christine, tianyang, delano, kachai, weicong and fali came too. Played indian poker, hahaha. Around 11PM like that, all of us sat at the kitchen and dranked. Was abit high lah. But fali worst, whole game keep asking me go smoke!!! LOL. After finished the whole bottle of Martel, went out smoke with fali, delano, weicong and tianyang. Hahaha. They kill one baby lizard! Bad right. Tsk. Then played mahjong with christine, delano and tianyang. Halfway mia from game. Went sofa lie down, really headache maximum. Outside could somehow hear fali from inside. Hahaha. Then watched ghost show together, while fali and kachai inside room sleeping. Arnd 6AM, delano and tianyang left. Weicong and fali left too. Then I went in room sleep. Woke up next to vivian at 4PM+. Chelsea's mom sended me, vivian and kc home.

12th June.
Stayed at home, slept throughout.

13th and 14th June.
Went chelsea's house at 4PM. Watched some drama with huili, then vivian came. Camwhored then left chelsea's house at 6/7PM to let her rest. Went forkandspoon pei vivian eat. Went inter send huili off, then me and vivian saw delano, kachai, gabriel, tianyang, weicong. Sat at red circle, then one by one left. Left me, vivian, tianyang and gabriel. Acc gabriel find johnathanyong, jeffrey and penghong. Sended vivian off with tianyang, then tianyang sended me home. :)

Met jk at 11:30PM. Went west cc slack, till 2AM vivian came. Forgot where we went la, then homed at 7:30AM like that! Hahaha, tmr havin' outing with my dear huili and vivian and maybe got others. Don't know what I'm going to do on thursday. Then friday going lan! ^.^

Burning out.

2011-06-09T15:28:00.003+08:00

Hello!!! Updating 'thru phone again. Sighzxcxz.

7th June.
Met Chelsea at blk8 coffee shop at 3:30PM. Ate and met claire at blk4. Walked to safra, met vivian and Christine there. Played pool. Christine left halfway. 1hr later went pizzahut for dinner. Hahaha after eating, decided to walk from interchange to bishan. Quite fun la. Walked pass skatepark, damn idiotic srsly. Everytime I walk pass there, the same thing always happens!!!! Next time, I swear I'm going to wear jacket and look uglier there. Zzzz. Pissed really. Like, god damn you la. Guys are all the same anyway. Sigh.

So at j8, sat at macdonald and went home around 9PM in a sleepymode again. Reached home and just slept through.

8th and 9th June.
Nothing much. Yesterday rotted and rest at home. Today, I guess same thing. My baby's sick. Hope he gets well soon. I don't know why, but I miss school days so much. But still, I'm going to have a week longer holiday than the others. Because I hate spotchecks. Tmr, hope I'm going out. Hahaha. Shall go back watching fairly oddparents. Cosmo's so addicting. Humorous, cute and just plainly adorable. :)

Ok, bye!

When love comes around, nothing will stand in our way.

2011-06-07T06:01:00.002+08:00

Was tagged with a quiz on facebook. Since my computer's down, and I could only use phone. So, I'll just do it on my blog? Hahaha. Slept for 28hours in total already. Cool. No plans for today, only have feel for pool. But I guess it won't happen...... So I think I'm rotting at home today. Haha. Shall go smoke, then bath and rot after this. Bye!

1. Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do?
Depends on which ex. Hahaha.

2.Your best friend tells you she's pregnant. What is your reaction?
I WANT TO NAME THE CHILD ! And also be her/his godmom. ^.^

3.When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Not sure hehehe.

4. Congratulations! You just had a son. What's his name?
I don't want give birth.

5. Congratulations! You just had a daughter. What's her name?
I don't want give birth! Jitao abort only.

6. What are you craving for right now?
Cheese fries, pizza!

7. What was the last thing you cried about?
When I thought I lost the ring.

8. When you buy something and your change is a penny, do you keep it?
Yes.

9. What color is your tissue box?
Pink!

10. Is there a ceiling fan in your room & if so does it have dust on it?
No.

11. What is the last voice mail you received about?
Er christine on talkbox, I forgot what she said.

12. Scariest thing you've experienced in the last year?
Don't know.

13. Have you ever had a garage sale?
No.

14. What is the last beverage you had?
Plain ice water.

15. Are you happy right now?
50-50.

16. Who came over last?
Er cousin?

17. Do you drink energy drinks?
Yes.

18. Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
No!

19. Dark or light jeans?
Dark.

20. What was the last movie you watched at home?
Love and war.

21. What is in your pocket?
Lighter and clips.

25. When is your birthday?
17th April.

26.What are you going to do after this?
Smoke.

27. Who was the last person you went shopping with?
Mom.

28. What about your favorite dessert?
Mango pudding!

29. Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
No.

30. Do you like pickles?
No.

31. Is someone in love with you?
No comments.

32. What color is your couch?
Orange.

33. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
No.

34. Does someone like you right now?
No comments.

35. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
Yes.

36. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Malcolm.

37. How many hours did you sleep for last night?
28hours.... Hehe.

38. Do you swear at your parents?
When I'm super pissed.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Not sure.

40. What is the last thing you spent money on?
Top up ezlink card.

41. Name one thing no one can ever take away from you?
My boyfriend!

42. What is the last thing you ate that had onions in it?
Er, homecooked food.

43. Crunchy or Puffy Cheetos.
Don't know.

44. Have you ever blocked someone from Facebook?
No.

45. Who was it?
Nobody.

46. Do you wear a name tag at work?
No.

47. What color is your iPod, mp3/4?
White!

48. What is your favorite key chain on your keys?
Nothing.

49. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Er, at nex and lan?

50. If the last person you kissed said that you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them?
Not really.... I don't believe in any of those anymore. Sigh.

51. Do you believe that any of your ex's think about you?
Not sure.

52. Would you date someone 8 years older than you?
No.

53. What were you doing at 1am this morning?
Sleeping.

54. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Don't think so?

55. Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
No.

56. Do you know a secret about your ex and if he/she pisses you off will you tell?
No.

57. Last person you kissed?
My boyfriend.

58. Have you ever had your heart broken? If so how many times? How did it feel?
Yes, alot of times. Super pain....

59. What time did you wake up this morning?
8AM+ then went back to sleep again.

60. What's on your bed right now?
Me, pillow, bolster and pooh!

61. Are you someone who worries too often?
Yes.

62. Do you like to cuddle/snuggle?
Yes.

64. What color is your hair?
Currently brown.

65. Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?
Yes, my attendance in school and my exam. :(

66. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Boyfriend and my clique

67. Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?
Yes. ^.^

68. Are you wasting your time on someone?
Nah.

69. Are you excited about anything today?
Not really.

70. On average, what do you think you cry the most about?
R/s.

71. What does the newest text message in your inbox say?
"okay"

74. Do you currently have a hickey?
Meaning?

75. Last person you texted?
Malcolm.

76. Miss anyone?
My boyfriend!

77. Have you ever skipped class?
Duh.

78. What's the longest timing you've ever talked on the phone?
5hours.

79. How many people are you texting?
Two.

80. Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
Yes!!!! Ben and kf.

81. Where was the last place you went?
Bishan.

82. Let's be honest, have you ever been played by someone?
No.

83. Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a M?
Nope.

84. Who is the last person that called you and what did they say?
Peiyi, where am I.

85. Do you trust all your friends?
Most of them.

86. Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
Meaning?

87. Are you usually wide awake in the morning?
No, unless in school.

88. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Hazel!

89. Do you dance in the car?
No?

90. Do you always answer your phone?
Yes unless busy.

91. Would you like to be in a relationship right now?

I am in a relationship.

92. Who's hoodie did you wear last?
Mine.

93. Do you sleep on your stomach?
No.

94. Is love really a beautiful thing?
Yes. :)

95. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Maybe?

96. Are you in a good mood right now?
Average.

97. Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
Yes. Christine, ben, vivian and peiyi.

98. Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
Hope not.

99. Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
Yes! Still with the same person right now. ^.^

100. How many people on your top friends have you slept in the same bed with?
12?

101. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
No.

102. What are you listening to?
Jar of hearts.

103. Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'?
Big difference.

104. When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
Forgot. When I met baby.

105. Can you touch your toes?
Obviously?

106. Do you have any interesting tattoos/piercings?
Not interesting actually.

107. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Audi/mapling at lan.

108. What's your favorite season?
Autumn.

109. Last thing you ate/drank?
Meatball soup.

110. How many siblings do you have?
Two.

111. Needles aren't so horrible?
Not really.

112. What time did you go to bed last night?
10PM.

113. Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
No.

115. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Plain water.

116. Are you scared of spiders?
Ofcourse.

117. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Duhhhh!

118. Ever been swimming in a lake or river?
No.

119. Last person you drove with in a car?

Taxi driver, christine, vivian, kenneth.

120. Who should start the kiss, the girl or the guy?
Guys!

121. What did you last buy?
Oooo I forgot.

122. What’s irritating you right now?
Boredom.

123. What radio station(s) do you listen to?
98.7FM.

124. Are you afraid of the dark?
Sometimes. Depends.

125. Are you listening to music right now?
Yes, jar of hearts.

126. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
Yes. :)

127. Do you get distracted easily?
Abit.

128. Was this the best year of your life?
Not really. Prefer 2009 more.

129. Who's your best friend?
Peiyi, sarah, christine, vivian, chelsea, claire, ben, kf, felicia. :)

130. What was going through your mind during your last kiss?
"I dont want so early leave." :(

131. Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive la duh.

132. Do you flirt a lot?
It's not flirt, it's called being friendly!

133. Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Maybe?

134. Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
Yea! Hen scary please.

135. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes. :$

136. Who was the last person that made you feel safe?
Last person.... Hm, tianyang or leon?

137. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
Duh.

138. Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
Yes! Hahaha.

139. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
Not really.....

140. What did you do yesterday?
Work with junhao and had sakura with ken and christine.

141. What time did you go to bed at and when did you wake up?
10PM+ till the next day 2AM. :(

142. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends.

143. Believe in love at first sight?
Yes.

144. What phrase or saying do you use the most?
"if it's meant to be, it will be. "

147. Who is your favorite person to talk to online?
Yuwei.

148. Who is your favorite person to talk to offlline?
Hm, baby or kf. ^.^

149. What’s your favorite flavor of ice cream?
Chocolate.

150. What’s your biggest fear?
Losing baby.

151. Would you rather write in pen or pencil?
Pen.

152. Peppermint or spearmint?
Spearmint.

153. Do you like your handwriting?
No.

154. When did you last kiss someone on the cheek?
Forgot.

155. Which shoe do you put on first?
Er...?

156. What was the last thing that made you smile?
Some stupid show.

157. Are you afraid of dying?
Not really.

158. Who would you rather be with right now?
Baby./clique.

159. Do you prefer holding hands or kissing?
Holding hands.

160. If an unstoppable force meets an immovable object, what happens?
How'd I know.

161. Who was the last person to slap your butt?
Christine!

162. Do you sunburn easily?
No.

163. Have you ever worn lipstick before?
Yes.

164. What do you say to the statement “Love is suicide."
No comments.

165. What do you think of when you hear the word “plume”?
Nothing.

166. When was the last time you were told you were beautiful?
No idea.

167. Have you ever seen a dead body?
Yes.

168. Are most of your friends virgins?
Yes.

169. Warm up near the fire or cuddle under the stars?
Cuddle.

170. What is the weirdest moment between you and your current boyfriend/girlfriend?
Don't know.

171. Have you ever bitten someone else’s tongue?
Yes, baby's. ^.^

172. Do you prefer short or long hair on the opposite sex?
Long, but not too long.

173. Have you ever been given an engagement ring?
If couple ring counts, yes.

174. What would you do if you opened your door to a dead person?
Stun and scream duh.

175. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Yes.

When it comes to love.

2011-06-06T20:54:00.004+08:00

Starting with saturday ok? :)

Met junhao at 11AM. Then trained to whitesands, finished before 3PM then headed on to hougangmall. Also finished in about 2hrs. I swear my feet was covered with blisters.... Fuckin' painful. Headed home at 5:30PM. Sat a one hour bus back to tpy. Stayed at home, then suddenly vivian, ken, tianyang and leon laopa came my house downstairs keep asking me go down. Hahahha. Ass la. Went down, accompany them makan then we wanted to go watch movie. Went nex then tickets were sold out. Suay maximum! After that, christine came. At arcade playplay awhile then went mac.

After mac, walked all the way to leon's house there. Along the way damn high! Hahahaha. Me, christine and vivian decided to cab to macpherson lan. Malcolm, ben, ahhao, ahkiat and kenneth was there. Mapled with baby and kenneth and audi-ed with vivian and ahhao. Played for about 3hrs? We girls left and flagged for cab. Then started raining and not even one cab stopped for us. Damn ass I tell you. Tsk. We girls played in the rain while flagging for cab. Hahahah. Called ahhao and malcolm out pei us wait. Haha. In the end, everyone came out when the rain stopped. After that, malcolm that fucker still took two sticks from me before we left. Damn bastard hor? :(

Reached home, prepared then met junhao at bishan. Trained to sengkang compass point mall. The mall was large I swear. I wanted to just leave and go home before I even started. Hehehe. But surprisingly we finished in 2hours too! So, went down tpy meet christine, gabriel, robin. Sat at red circle. Gabriel and sherman left, then junhao and robin too. Went home with christine and took money then headed to interc and met ken. Went yck sakura together. Thanks ken for paying everything. Hahaha. Ate, then trained to bishan in a very sleepymode. I was gg to breakdown fuckin' soon. The movie started at the timing that we didn't want, so didn't watch then headed for home. Took 59 reached home at 9PM+ and slept all the way till today, 8PM++. 23hours! :(

Plans for tomorrow still unknown. Don't know whether I should go out or not. And by the way, I really miss my boyfriend! Didn't meet him on our second month due to work. Sigh. :(

Long post yes? Hahaha. Alright. Bye. ^.^

Love comes in four letters, so does pain.

2011-06-03T22:11:00.003+08:00

Working with junhao tmr. Posting 'thru phone. Xinku maximum without my comp. And macbook's taking forever.... Sigh.

Anyway today, woke up at 6PM+. went for dinner with vivian and kenneth at 8:30PM at forkandspoon. Homed at 10PM. Me and junhao's destination might be at whitesands and hougangmall. Far right!!!! At hougang maybe can ask yuze come down. Hahaha fake! Ok, tmr's first month and I have work on the same day. Suay, yes...? Sorry baby. Will make it up to you. :(

Ok, bye.

From the bottom of my heart.

2011-06-03T09:53:00.004+08:00

I think I miss baby super much now. Sorry for treating you so cold just now......... Regretted. Dui bu qi ok? One more day till second month. First time we were tgt 30th April 2010, after two weeks then no more already. If that day, I didn't have those stupid moodswings and stupid thoughts, will we last until today? Tsk. ☹

First time I saw you.... 98 basketball court. I actually liked you!!! But, sigh nvm. Then 2010, got closer. Then 2011, 4th april we saw each other then I texted you then I asked you to ask me then we got tgt. Hahahaha. Your birthday chalet, I fed you chicken wing though it was fucking hot. :( I will never do that again srsly. My finger hot like don't know what shit like that. Slept tgt two nights. Like sweet only leh those days. Couple ring, still so cute put inside ice and give it to me. We're not texting or talking much like the past now. But I don't know why, I don't really show that I care. I don't show that I really really love you deep inside. I don't show that I'm afraid to lose you. I don't know why, I don't know how to show my feelings out anymore. I'm sorry if I keep hurting you.... I know you kept giving in. But, wo zhen de hen ai ni. ♥

Collecting your jar of hearts, tearin' love apart.

2011-06-03T08:50:00.002+08:00

At vivian's house currently. Home computer broke down, FML INSIDE OUT. Ok, hafta wait till my macbook comes to me. Meanwhile, I can't update frequently. Sorry!!!

Yesterday like a fun only. So long since I tonned, plus got entertainment the whole night! Hahaha.
So er, met vivian at 5AM++. No joke ok, I really met her damn fuckin' early. Cause she came back tpy from macpherson lan. Not forgetting, when I was home arnd 3AM+ my tv turned on by itself!!!! Mother fucking scared the shit out of me. Then I realised I was sitting on the damn remote control.... Fml. So after I went down to find vivian, we walked around tpy, and then she came my house. I prepared then went to her's. Then christine came. 10AM we went to TheOne, Christine cutted bangs. Ate lunch then to Christine's house. Slept there till 3PM.
Bused to my house again. Took money then went inter waited for Claire. Went forkandspoon makan, Chelsea gave vivian surprise. Bused too bishan. Caught pirates of the caribbean. Super cool. Mermaid part was best! Its like, all the mermaids so chio pretty and sexy. Jealoussssss. Hahahha fake.
So, after the movie, we saw malcolm, kellyn, ben and jonas. At arcade we saw joe. Hahah. Bused to the prawing area and the golf course there. Went fish spa with clique. Super ticklish!!! Like my skin vibrating by itself. But, fun la in the end. Hahahaha. Celeste and her boyfriend came halfway. Went coffeeshop slack and ate while waiting for the guys. Arnd 12-1AM, Fali, weicong, kachai and delano came. Sang birthday song for my dear vivian then after awhile Claire and her sist and the boyf left.
Walked to weicong's house downstairs, robin came. Then walked to jeremy's house downstairs. Was actually waiting for him, but in the end he never come down. Tsk!!! Walked to bishan park but only me chelsea, christine and vivian walked inside. The guys didn't come along. Halfway through, they called then we came out.
The guys came again then went back weicong's house downstairs. He brought pokercards down. Played indian poker. Hahahaha ending damn disgusting. Lazy to elaborate. Homed at 7AM+. Ok done with yesterday.

Today, slept from 7AM+ till 11PM. I'm a heavy sleeper. Hehehehe. Watched show till 5AM plus, vivian called. She wanted to come my house area find me. Hahah. But in the end, baby and her came, then baby longbang me and vivian to blk232 RC. Slacked awhile only. Then the rest went home. Longbang-ed vivian and tiffany to their house. I swear I sweated like some shit. Tired can!! Hahahha but I still can't seem to fall asleep. Why? Sigh. No idea why too. Alot of thoughts runnin' through my mind maybe. So tmr, should I take over junhao's place or? But like awkward that's why I don't want..... Can't make up my mind!!! Ahh forget it. Ok, bye. :/

Have you ever lost someone, tried to take it back. But the damage was done.

2011-05-26T05:21:00.004+08:00

Morning~ Going x-country later on!

Chelsea's gna wear sturdee with me, hehehe. Can't wait to run ltr on. Don't know why, hahaha. Hope I'll lose weight after today!!! I think I've like, put on 2kg or more leh. Being paranoid maybe? Whatever. Anyway, I'll be seeing baby later over there! Cause he's gna accompany timothy go there. Hahaha. Meeting clique at 7:10AM at inter. Just finished bathing and helping lizhen do her blog layout. Working with that girl during june hols! Maybe working tgt with megan. :)

I haven't been sleeping properly nowadays!!! Frustrating. Nevermind, june. Must get back all my sleep that I've lost. Hope I won't ton too much. :(

Shall update tonight or something when I get back home? Hehehe see you bye! ♥

Lastly, advertise lizhen's blog yi xia. Hahahaha.

Visit -> www.lizhensmackyouwithdarkdarkchocolate.blogspot.com

Thanks!

More than my pride.

2011-05-25T06:42:00.004+08:00

Missing school today! Whole clique not gg school in fact. Hahahaha, for the first time.

Anyway, should I go for cross country tmr? Should I even go on the last day? :(

Or just officially self-declare holiday, and pon all the way till school reopens? Sigh tsk sigh tsk.

多痛都可以，不能没有你。

2011-05-25T05:34:00.009+08:00

Ken idiot. HAHA. :)

I miss my pri school so much!!! :( Basketball, 6.2'09 classroom, mrs anthony, mr boh, mr aw. Miss noelle lee! Ahhh i wna crai. I want to go back to those simple days. Those everyday laughters, everyday being so high, so carefree. I miss all of you so much, classmates, schoolmates. Everyone, all those who meant sooooo much to me! Sigh. T_T

Sorry for updating for so long!!!!!! Busygirl96 :(

Missed me yes? Hahahha no idea where to start from! Ok, from today lah k? Lazy recall those past few days what I've been doing. Hehehehe.

6:30AM went blk 4, met dagary, baby, vivian, lizhen and ayers. Arnd 6:34AM walked to schl with baby and vian then @ frontgate saw my dearest czm! Took storybook from her, then waited for ahpei them come. After awhile, went in school? Haha. Assemly at parade square, then went hall and boarded bus to vivo. SIAN LIKE A DOG THERE PLS. Actually at the end was quite ok lah. Cause kevin keep want step my shoe!! Then need run here run there. Then see mdm see also need zao. Tsk. 12:30PM went wait for bus, then while waiting, xk erzi, amin, khyree and amirul come deesiao! LOL. Amin like good only. Gave me one stick, ONLY ONE STICK. Sian. Hahaha. Went up bus > slept inside > reached schl > sat down at foyer > waited fr teacher dismiss > went canteen > walked to junguang's house with vivian. Ahpei, lizhen, ahhao and baby was there too. Went home with vivian at 4:30PM++. Wanted to go out one! BUT I FELL ASLEEP. !@#*#&%^#$ T_T

Ok la, I don't know what I posting also. Hahahaha sowwii3zxczx.

10 more days to second month baby! I love you, hehehe. You won't go in again, even if you do, I will still wait. How long also I will wait! Then you also must stop doing those stupid things lah. You want leave me out here for how many times? Stupid idiot retarded boy. ♥♥♥

Sometimes I keep my feelings deep inside, sometimes I just don't want to show you that I truly care.

2011-05-03T18:40:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating for about a week plus. Might be editting this post either tonight or tmr about what happened in the past few days. Tmr's the start of MYE, and my mood keeps pulling me back from revising those exam topics. Sigh.

Tomorrow's our first month too. Its been so long since I celebrated a monthsary. Dreamt that I lost him last night, tsk. Fucking scared can. What if one day I rly lost you? :(

Can you feel the pain in my heart while I'm crying? Can you sense that I'm sad somehow...?

2011-04-25T02:06:00.007+08:00

Junhao draw one.

Home!

Junhao draw one.

erzi's present for me. :)

birthday cake!

3 days never updateeeeeeeeeee! Sorry! :( At least this post haz pix right? HEHEHE.

21st April, Thursday: Missed schl. Hahaha. Had a study date with my dear christine. Then went christine's mom's house ton. That mad girl ah, bueytahan leh! In the middle of the night suddenly shout. Then start hitting me wake up. I woke up, then she went back to sleep. WTF LA SHE. LOL.

22nd April, Friday: Woke up at 11AM+. Christine's mom started to ask the maid pack things le. Went katong, see maid then had lunch with them. Came back tpy awhile then take things and went christine's mom's friend's baby 1 year birthday. Quite awkward la, but after awhile ok already. Boring only. Ha ha. Then 6PM+ came back toapayoh met junhao. Accompanied him dinner, then went interchange macdonald study. Covered all topics on geog! Happy girl. Had quite alot h2h talks together. Hahaha, went home at 11PM++.

23rd April, Saturday: Met christine and desmond at west cc late afternoon. Baby and claire came too. Had din. After that, went playground find kimyan and yiying for awhile then chelsea came! Headed to 98 w/o christine. Had those kind of feeling like its 2009 all over again......... Really miss those days so damn fucking much. Played basketball ha ha ha. My erzi came at 10PM+ too. Saw two of my juniors! Long time haven't seen them already. Hehe. Chelsea left after awhile. Then christine's brother and claire left too. Stayed for awhile, then walked back to central with xiekang erzi, baby and desmond. After that, baby sended me home! :)

24th April, Sunday: Woke up at 12PM+. Nua on my bed for 3hrs. Got up and bathed, prepared and blahhhh. Met charmaine at interchange arnd 7PM. Went popular bought my textbooks then headed to interchange mac to study. Baby came find us at 8PM+. Covered 3/4 of the topics on science. Fast right me? Ha ha ha. Packed and baby sended me home at 9PM plus. Came home, rotted and kept irritating mom! I think I today noisiest in the house. Hehehe.

Ok done updating. Don't think I'm sleeping early tonight. I keep thinking too much............. Ok forget it. I'm left with history and maths to mug on for MYE. Shld I go for tuition? I rly don't understand maths leh. Sigh. If I fail this year's mid-year, maybe shall try to improve and try harder for EOY ba. Tsk tsk. Hao la, enough of words already. Ha ha ha, ok bye.

I'm sorry, I can't be perfect.

2011-04-21T02:00:00.005+08:00

Starting from 18th April, yes? ;)

Missed schl. Met cheryl and malcolm at 7pm at 122. Walked to 49 meet bingbing and yifeng. Baby came and find me. Homed at 9/10PM.

19th April: I went schl at chinese period. Wen laoshi and zhenhao kept making the whole class laugh, I like. Hahaha. Nadiah didn't come. Lessons were as usual. Recess, xiekang gave me bearbear. Supa'cuteeeeee! After school, stayed back and studied geog and hist with chelsea, christine, claire and vivian @ canteen. For the first time. Hahaha, so happy. At front gate, accompanied chelsea wait for kachai. Then christine stepped on the cockroach, funny maximum. Hehe, sunyan treated me drink as my birthday present! Went home at 4PM++.

20th April: Didn't go school! :( But I stayed at home whole day, studied for 5 hours. Covered 2 units on agriculture. Really hope I'll be able to understand hist, geog, maths and science by the time exams come! 10 more days left for me....... I still have the feeling I'm going to fail. Stress la really. Sigh sigh sigh sigh. Have to chiong like one mad dog from tmr onwards. And maths, whose going to help me?! I skipped too much lessons. I don't even know whats going on leh. So many topics need to cover! Fml lahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

21st April ( Today ): Going schl later on. Ending at 10AM. Pray hard nothing goes wrong in school! I don't want to get caught for anything. Nails, contact lens, skirt, sock and etc. Get damn pissed off la. Everytime go school will kena niam without fail. Hope miss nadiah doesn't come today also. Hehehe. Anyway, ystd's soccer match, 4N won. 10 - 0. Congrats to them!

Later on / tmr going having a study date with charmaine I think? I rly need to cover everything on geog by tmr!!!! Sighhhhhhhhhh forget it k bye. :(

15th birthday.

2011-04-17T23:12:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhhh, sorry for not posting for so damn fucking long! So busy nowadays. :(

Its gna be a LOOOOOOOOOOOONG post! Hehe. If I'm able to recall everything that happened only.

Starting from 7th April, Thursday!

My baby sended me to school with megan, kellyn and zm. After school, stayed back and watch soccer match. Although our school lost. At least we had one point! Hahahha. I remembered I got pissed off in class too. No idea why! Couldn't remember. Hehe. Then 7pm plus, Mom and her boyf came fetch me, had sakura for dinner tgt.

8th April, Friday: Missed school. Met christine and cabbed down downtown chalet meet baby, junguang, weiming and megan. First night had BBQ ourselves! I helped start fire tooooo. Kind hearted girl right me?! Hehe. I only know I smoked too muchhhhhhhhh, wth. Baby sended me home to take clothes and charger. Then christine went homey. Went back chalet, orh orh. That night slept with baby too. He kept pulling my blanket away from me. Cold die me la please. :(

9th April, Saturday: Second day at chalet. Woke up at 1PM then charmaine and christine came. Sended baby to MRT there with charmaine, he need go reporting. Then back to chalet and bathed with her! Hahahaha. Smoked, slacked, ate, watched tv. BBQ that night again, sang birthday song for that idiot boy. Hmm, alot ppl ah that day. But second night, me christine charmaine baby's friend weiming and baby tonned. The rest don't know go where!

10th April, Sunday: Checked out at 10AM plus. Cabbed back to braddell. KFC with char, christine and baby. Went home, bathed and went meet charmaine. Accompanied her home to bath and she cooked for me and christine! Arnd 6PM++ went her house again to makan. Then baby came christine's house find me too. Bing2 came find charmaine also hahaha. Went west cc pei baby eat. Bing2 left. Baby also left. That day I had to go home alone! Tsk tsk.

11th - 12th April, Monday and Tuesday: Fell sick. Actually alot ppl fell sick after the chalet too. Haiyo.

12th April, Tuesday: Baby's birthday! Hehehehe, Went over christine's house, that idiot came too. Went blk 1 with her to take keys. Had kway chup for dinner! Then baby came find me agn. Went around beatty area walk walk. Then baby sended me home.

13th April, Wednesday: Gary wong's birthday! HAHA. Christine came over my house, cooked spaghetti for that girl. After that, went beatty awhile. Then went baby's house awhile. Hahaha. Then he sended me home~

14th April, Thursday: Waz sick againz. Missed school like AGAIN. LOL. Rotted at home on that day! :P

15th April, Friday: Skipped school that day. It was on purpose LOL!!!! Met charmaine, went baby's housey. Then he went off for interview! Waited for christine. Accompanied her home to bath and change. Met kimyan to take my stuff. Then went makan. After that, slacked and walked around. Waited for mom and her boyf to come. Drove us to united square, ate dinner. Hehe. Then ordered oreo cheesecake for my birthday cake. Blowed candles, sat for awhile. Mom's boyf drove us back to tpy. Alighted near baby's house. Smoked and waited for him to find us. After awhile, me char and gary went blk 49 find shaobin and yifeng. Charmaine left first. Baby sended me home, reached home at 2AM!

16th April, Saturday: Cabbed down nex. Met leon papa, hetesh and christine. Accompanied leon to his house downstairs, then me and christine came back tpy and they went bugis. LOL. Met baby and anson then went christine's house. Junguang came too. Played mahjong! LOST EVERY SINGLE ROUND. D U L A N MAXIMUM Y'KNOW Y'KNOW?!?!!! Junguang kept "zha hu" HAHAHA. LOL!!! Then slacked and watched tv at christine's house till 2AM++. After that, baby anson and junguang sended me home!

17th April, Sunday: ITS MY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY! Christine came over my house, then met baby at interchange. Went cine tgt. Caught JustinBieber - Never say never. COOL MAN. I don't hate him anymore. Hahahaha! After that, came back tpy at 7:30PM plus. Dinner at lurvy curry. Xiekang erzi came find us! Then they brought me to library infront there the open space. Keep ask baby to cover my eyes, and say "must trust him" blahblahhhhhhh. LOL!!! Really never expect what happened next la. When we reached and when baby took away his hand, I saw chelsea and claireeeeeee! HAHAHA I SWEAR I COULD CRY LA REALLY. Stupid christine! Say they couldn't come. Make me heart break for nothing....... They sang birthday song for me, hehehe so shy! Blowed candles and cutted cake. Chelsea left first. Then talk talk with claire, then she left. Around 5mins later, xiekang also went off followed by christine. Then baby sended me home too! Reached home at 10pm like that I think. Best surprise overall la seriously! Hahahaha, ok I'm done. SORRY, LAZY UPLOAD PIX. HEHEHE I LAZYGIRL96. HAHA! OK BAI.

Pray hard I can start posting EVERYDAY from tmr onwards????

HMM, MAYBE NOT. I'm gna start mugging on studies from tmr till end of mid-year exam. Hope I can make it. Need chiong! Cannot waste time already. Ahhhhhh. I don't even know which subject should I start from! Geog, hist, eng, maths, science, chinese, lit?!?!! My brain gna bao zha anytime laaaaaa. Good luck to myself. Hehehehe, will try my best to post frequently ok?! Bb!

Lost you once, I don't want to let go again.

2011-04-06T19:02:00.003+08:00

I think this page is dying.................. Ok start from 4th!

4th April: Met christine and vivian at mac, then went school tgt. School was best! All still in camp spirit. Love 2n1 much much more now! School was usual. Recess was fun fun. Then singh came and kpkb. First time our whole clique get caught tgt. And we gl alot with him HAHAHAHA. After school, stayed back with christine. Watched soccer training, sat at canteen talk with xiekang erzi and rance. Blahhhhhhh, and went home at 6pm++.

5th April: Missed school. One big fat idiot came my house downstairs fetch me, HEHE. Went christine's house pei her change. Then went entertainment meet charmaine and makan. After that went my house take $$ then went thefaceshop acc char. Headed to skygarden. Bing2 and yifeng came. Played truth/dare. Stupid la!!!! Tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk. Ok nvm. Then went mac with baby and char. Sended char to mrt. Then baby sended me home at 10pm++. ♥

6th April: Skipped school AGAIN. Idk why I keep kernot wake up. Dulan......... Ok sua, tmr must must. Hahahaha I piggirl96 today. Kept sleeping and waking up. Gg back sleep again!!! WAN AN.

Sry for not posting everyday. Don't know why I everyday also fuckinggggggggg tired. HAIS. Kekeee, bye!

Just let me love you silently, I'm already contented.

2011-04-03T13:48:00.005+08:00

HEY. I didn't post for more than three days, SO SORRYYYYYYYYY. Start from first day of camp alright? :')

30th March: Reported in school at 7:30am, got to know our trainers. GOT ONE VERY SHUAI ONE, HAHA. Played games la and blahhhhhh. At 8/9AM went dairy farm, went our dorms put stuffs and all. Then had lunch. Made alot of noises. Super high laaaaaaaaa. My god. Then played those general games. Dinner. Then went for night hike!!!!!! Kevin infront of me and sylvia behind. FUCKING DARK LA INSIDE, I NEED KEEP HOLDING TIGHTLY ONTO HIM CB. LOL. Then walked to one open space, see stars and in the end walked back. Bathed with shahirah, chelsea and vivian in the boys toilet hahhahaha. Had supper and de-brief with nel. Laughed alot!! Went back our dorms and slept with christine, ahpei, vivian and chelsea. Finally lights off!

31st March: Woke up at 6AM. Brushed teeth then breakfast. Wasnt really that high at first, super tiring. After that went bukit timah hike, ccb. I swear that fucking 2hr hike can kill half of my life one lor!!!!!! Ppl say what, got 156 steps of the staircase ah????? PLUS EACH STAIRS IS FUCKING HIGH. At least 4 steps of a normal staircase stairs. AIYA IDK WHAT I TALKING. Its fucking toturing can already. I think I can lose 10kg laaaaaaa. But I kept thinking he was at the top, then I can like succesfully climb up. See how *ahem* motivates me? HAHAHAHA OK JK. After that fucking hike, had lunch!! I was high by lunch lor I think. Hmmm then went for high elements. Played flying fox first. The tower was like.......... 3/4 storeys high? Ok la, not really that scary. Didn't scream hahahahha. After that played the four stations. And thennnnnnnnn, rock climbing. I only climb till half of it! The second time, kevin keep deesiao me then I keep drop down nabei! LOLLLL. But two halves = one full wall. HAHA. Ok la, jkjkjkjk. Then dinner followed by campfire. Fun la sial. Kept screaming and blahblahhh. Hahaha! Our class performed, kindof failed la. But I still think its nice! HEHE. Then had supper and de-brief. Went bath with same ppl again. Kept swinging our hairs LOL!! Then before sleep, they got high and starting raping each other again.......... Tsk! Then slept at 12AM++.

1st April: Woke up at 7AM+. Brushed teeth, packed bag and all. Had activities and talks. Then around 11AM+, boarded the bus.... I could really cry la. When we said bye to our trainers. I miss nel the mostttttttttt. Ray, huiyi and mei also. SIGH! Then reached school, I continued being high. Hehehehehe. Went mac with vivian, chelsea, christine, claire to meet andi. Then yuze, gabriel and kelly came too. Went home at 2/3PM. Reached home, bath and somehow fell asleep. Kekekeke. Chelsea and christine suddenly came up my house just to wake me up!!! Tskkk. Went tpy library mac meet them and gabriel. Then yuze came, walk to find weicong and kachai. Went blk 128 to pei gabriel cut hair. Walked to kfc. After that went inter meet xueping, andi and vivian. Had dinner tgt then claire came. Kept talking all those erxin stuff at dinner la hahahahahha. After that slacked arnd central. Then went safra and vivian, andi, yuze, xueping, christine and claire. Played pool. Calvin they all came halfway. Around 12AM+ went tpy mac with the girls only. Hahhaha. Then claire left. After that went bus stop had talks with vivian and christine. Got screened then went christine's housey use comp and slept!

2nd April: Woke up at 3PM plus. Went home at 4PM prepared and all. Met christine, vivian, calvin, ph, weicong, gabriel and ka chai at 7PM at inter. Went for dinner tgt. After that, went skygarden with only xueping, ph, gabriel, vivian and christine. Claire came tooooo! Hahahaha. Walked to safra at arnd 10pm+ without xueping. Played pool with the girls. Ph and gabriel left after awhile. After that, all of us went home at 1AM+! Hehehehe.

3rd April: I think I'm rotting at home today? Hmmmmmm see how. Hahahaaha!

Long post right?! Heng I never put pix inside. LOL!!! I got back my phone already, text me at 98621118 ok. Hahahaha ok bye. Happy reading ah. ^.^

Because of you, I can't think properly. Everywhere I see your face.

2011-03-29T21:52:00.003+08:00

I'm going to miss him so much much much muchhh ! Sigh. Ok nvm~

Yesterday: went school at 1AM find christine. Slacked in school till 3/4PM headed to nex kbox, fell asleep there for 30mins! HAHAHAHA. Then headed home at 7PM and jitao kun. So tired yesterday hehehe.

Today: gave school a miss. Too tired alrea!!! Er went school with christine to pass huili and peiwei one form for camp. After that slacked around school area. Waited for leon. Then bused to nex AGAIN. He went home change and blahhhhhhh. Then he came and meet us pass christine the bag then talk talk awhile after that he went off. Went fairprice walk walk and buy things, homed at 7PM++. Packed almost everything for camp! Super heavy la seriously. So tired nowwwww. Sigh, I think I will die halfway leh............ I will miss him, ALOT ALOT. Fucking sad. Ok lah, won't be posting for 3 days. Miss me thanks. Bye!

I think of you day and night, every SINGLE second.

2011-03-27T23:32:00.006+08:00

ahpei raped me! :(

Hahaha, me and vivian kissed ♥

Starting from friday, yes? Sorry for not blogging for about 4 days! Hahaha.

Friday: met christine, vivian and sharon at fairprice. Then went to christine's housey, I got rape and blahhhhh. Prepared food for steamboat. Hahahha fun la sia! Hm no idea why halfway no mood. I kept thinking about him. After that, sent claire to the bus-stop. Went up and watch Drama Queen for awhile then headed to braddell mac to meet andi, weicong and xueping with chelsea, vivian and christine. Went big staircase slack and headed back to christine's house at 3am. Slept!

Saturday: Woke up 10/11AM plus. Had steamboat again, with vivian and christine only. Then went home change and bath. Met christine at 6PM, went to nex find claire, chelsea, leon and calvin. Claire left, then we went to buy our camp stuffs! Bought a hellokitty blue towel. Super cute I tell you. Bought a purple water bottle and two bags from CottonOn. Went back tpy without leon. Dinner at lurvy curry! Then we went safra play pool. Aft that walked to tpy mac then went calvin's house downstairs with chelsea, weicong, christine to play with dog! Er after that cabbed home. Reach at 3/4AM ah? Forgot.

Sunday (Today): Met christine at inter 5PM plus, buy cig. Then waited for charmaine then bused to J8. Watched movie; Perfect Rivals. Er..... rate it about 7/10 bah? Average la. Quite nice. Movie ended, then went bishan inter smoke first. In the end went to take 88 back to tpy central. Met calvin, yusuf and jeremy. Homed at 10:30PM.

Omg, long post right?! I think I almost died halfway posting and uploading pix. Giving school a miss tmr. Have no feel at all! Shall go on tues and after that it's camp. Yay LOL. Feel so busy lor nowadays. Hahahaha, hungrygirl now. Shall go order mac. Baibai! ^.^

It just became a habit, of you never leaving my mind.

2011-03-24T23:45:00.004+08:00

Er I went to school today, I was a super good girl 'thru-out the day. And I super duper uber love my new sitting arrangment, I CAN FINALLY SEE THE WHITEBOARD AND I'M CLOSE TO THE WINDOW. Thank god la really. LOL. Was called out by singh with hanis during science class. Went AVA room for the god damn CID talk. Like so special lah, the rest of the school at assembly, and some of us can sit down there listen to those craps. Hahahha. Er the talk was okay..... Except for the murder scenes and the prison caning. I COULD FUCKING CRY OKAY. No joke, really. Hahahha. Like really NC16 la. Or should be, M18. Like disgusting over maximum. I think I'm gg to have nightmares for the next few days. Fml. Sigh sigh sigh! I became good girl already, still have to go for the stupid talk. Then after school, went central with christine and chelsea, bought the CD for tmr, and home sweet home! No work today, hahaha. I'm bored.......... Ahhhhhhhhh. Ok, nvm. CAMPING ON COMP 2NIGHT AGAIN! Ooo, and there's steamboat @ christine's housey on friday night. So excited, FINALLY ALL THE SISTERS ARE GOING. Each and everyone of us. Hahahahaha! Hao ba, shall stop here. Bye!

If 2012's world-end came, that's the only time I'm going to spend my last minute telling you that I like you.

I just want to love you, look at you from far. That's all.

2011-03-24T03:03:00.007+08:00

Skipped school yesterday, too tired to even crawl there...... Slept for 16hours today. Think I'll be camping on the computer till its time for school again. 3 more hours, sigh. Er having work later on at night.....? Hope I won't be too exhausted from school so that I can go work. Hahaha bye.

*On 21st March 2011*

Mr wen jie: Ni de zuo ye zai na li? Ke ben leh, kuai dian na chu lai. (Wheres your wkbook and txtbk? Quick take out.)

Me: Mei you la! (Don't have.)

Mr wen jie: Ni yao wo da gei ni de jia zhang ma? (Do you want me to call and inform your parents?)

Me: Sui bian ni. *diao wenjie* (Up to you.)

Mr wen jie: *bo wei gong* (Nothing to say.)

HAHAHAHHA. ^.^

Dearest mother, if I really want to stop school, I long ago would have alr jitao quit school ok. Don't put words into my mouth and just stfu about that fucking letter. Thanks alot, I really don't want to waste my time and shout/quarrel with you anymore. Say I keep tonning, playing comp? You took my phone in the first place right? Now complain I use computer? When I got phone, you got see me using computer until morning ornot? Fuck you la seriously. Tell you so many times, I got phone won't use comp and can sleep earlier with peace, you don't want believe. One day rest from school you there kpkb. At least I not like you ok, nabei. 24hrs camp on your fucking phone. At least I one week got go more than one day, better than last year jitao pon school for 2 months k. Its not like I whole week never go right. Fuck yourself la ! _l_

多痛都可以，不能没有你。

2011-03-22T15:08:00.006+08:00

My cute + retarded face, the quote like abit extra ah LOOOL.

Anyway,

Harrow people. *wink*

(Yesterday) : Met christine at 7:30am, went school tgt. School was er.......... ok la. I like abit too high ah yesterday. Hahahhaha. Stayed back, waited for vivian, left at 6pm plus. Supposed to wait for claire, but we left first. Lolol. Then went home, bath and jitao kun alrea.

(Today) : Er..... just came back from sku. Went for two days already! Omg, three more days, must jiayou. Hehehhehe. Went school at 7am plus, stupid rain la wtfwtfwtfwtf. School ok also, drama lesson farking fun. Project work also, laugh alotalot. My leg pain nao. Super pain can. Sigh damn sad la ytd and today also.................. tsk tsk. Ok nvm, later gg for work I think? Camp's next weeeeeeeek. Excited and sian at the same time LOL. Cfm alot things need bring one lor. Like abit lazy la sial. Hais nvm. Hahaha ok bye!

R e g r e t s.

2011-03-20T22:45:00.002+08:00

Met chelsea at 6pm dinner at subway on friday. Went pasarmalam with vivian, junhao, rance, douglas and idk who together. Went blk9 playground then chelsea went off at 9pm+. Er, went blk1RC slack. Christine came. Went her house at 12am++, ton with vivian. Hahahha. Watch ghost show and had h2h talk with vivian. Slept at 4/5am. Woke up at 3pm plus then went home. Rotted at home yesterday and today. Hehehehe. School tmr, sigh! Spotcheck and all. Fml :(

Just staring at your name makes me go crazy, that's how deep I love you.

2011-03-18T08:57:00.005+08:00

HARROW. Didn't sleep last night!!!!!!!! Omg see new things on this page already? I spended 1hr++ for that fucking header and another 1hr++ to find those stupid codes and small pix! I swear I'm not going to do that anymore, LOL. Er, ok.......... Gg for breakfast hhehehee. Pom pom first, hahahha bye noobs!

If I really wait for you, if I really hang-on, will things even change for that bit?

I wish I could tell you, I really want to.

2011-03-17T22:57:00.003+08:00

Today overslept, didn't meet christine in the morning. Er went out with ben and yq @ 3pm++. Amk > Yq's house > Hsh at 6/7pm bah. Ben damn bitch today, idiot! But at least he sended me home. Eh, I rly miss the feeling of getting sent home everyday lor. Damn long sia, 1yr ago. Haiyo sua. Hahahhaha, shall continue watching drama. Ordering mac for supper. HEHE BYE!

Him / him? Change? Sigh \:

I'd l i e.

2011-03-16T01:37:00.006+08:00

Ooo, its 1:36am. Yesterday (tuesday), went out in the morning. Hahahha then went to meet charmaine, went to work. I now then realize singaporeans ah..... GAN JI TEY RUDE. Mei you jia jiao de, most of them. Hahhaha I actually skipped most of the sg'ians number, only called malays and ppl from other country. Er tml rot I think? If not jiu shi find ben ler. Sho lonqqqqqqzxczcxz no see him. March holidays gg end soon! Time fly de hen fast. Sigh~ Hehehehhe ok baibai. :-*

I don't want to like you anymore. I don't want to keep hoping for something/someone I won't have. x

I n f a t u a t i o n

2011-03-14T13:30:00.007+08:00

I MISS CNY LA SIAL. Kekeke, random :( LOL.

Er oh ya, in front of me (my aunt + cousin).

Spent my saturday at homey. Yesterday 7pm+ met vivian at inter, walked to christine's house. Johnathan yong, andi and alvin there playing mahjong with her. 9pm+ went the stupid park with them, go there feed mosquito only, nabei. Er then, went makan at blk 79. Went christine's house at 12am+. Ton @ her house, breakfast at mac and came home! Today another day at home ba? So many people got CCA today....... Hen shang xin, sigh. Shall go sleep somemore! Zai jian. ^.^

Oh ya! My phone's at india with my mom's boyf......... I more sad la now. Tsk, actually can take back one! Nabeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Need wait till he comes back, heart break man. :(

[Edit]

I've been screaming in this house since I came back I swear, a n g r y. I feel so guilty shouting back at them....... HOW?! Retarded max. Kip make me angry, make me scared I will look old, tsk tsk. Er I super hungry omg. Oooo ya, first long post on march ah??? Hehehehe so happy. Ok bye :-$

xoxox

H u n g r y~

2011-03-12T19:01:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went christine's house at 7am++ ! Went down buy breakfast then went to blk123 at 11am. Went nex, kept walking don't know how many rounds just to find johnathan's present but got nothing to buy for him. Piang eh! Went kbox for 2hr, then went beatty outside. Walked to the backgate see soccer. Then went christine's ahma house till 6pm+ jiu go beatty outside meet andi. Rance junhao and yusuf also came out. Accompany andi go back his house change then went the bbq. Got damn high with vivian lor HAHAHAHA. Alot things happened then hsh at 1am! BYE. ^.^

I MISS YOU ALOT, REALLY :(

Only just seeing your name makes everything feel alot better.

2011-03-11T04:14:00.004+08:00

Time check: 4:15AM. And I'm still awake! Camping on the comp till school starts. Should I go school or.....? Have no feel at all! But still, I want to see people there. Ahhhhhhhhh how!? Plus its raining. Tsk tsk tsk. Waiting for 5am to spam call my christine. Hahaha, maybe meeting her before school if we're going. Going nex in the afternoon to present-hunt! Then going johnathan yong's birthday. After that, should be tonning at christine's housey. Hehehehhe, I want to take back my phone for march hols! Hais confirm fail one lor..... My contact lens damn blur now. Nabei. Nevermind, continue watching love buffet! Bai. ♥

I want to tell everyone its you. but........ sigh :(

D i l e m m a.

2011-03-10T20:39:00.004+08:00

I missed school today!!!!!! Walao..... Vivian called at 6am then i fell asleep again. Cb la sia. Nevermind, tomorrow confirm plus chop chop go. ^.^

Yesterday went school early. Nothing much also. Talked alot with vivian! Hehehehe. After school, went detention with sheryl. Got junhao, hanis, xiekang, rebecca and georgie inside. After that went ISH. Sat with kelly while waiting for vivian and chelsea end cca. Then went chelsea's house wait for her bath and change, then vivian's house wait for her change. Bused to tpy central then chelsea went to find delano first. Vivian came my house wait for me change, hahahaha. Dinner at lurvy curry with chelsea, vivian and delano. After that, walked around~ Lastly, hsh at 10pm++!

I want to talk to you just one simple "hello" will do :(

O n e y e a r.

2011-03-09T06:15:00.002+08:00

6:15AM now!!!!! Omg tired la i swear. Only slept for one pathetic hour......... EYEBAGS. :(

Another day gg school without a phone, like one retard only hais. 2 week lei, can jitao die one lor. Tsk tsk tsk tsk. Hope today singh won't kp about my detentions i owe him.... Anw 1 more month till kf's out, i suddenly remembered. Hahahahha ok fine, i want go prepare already, bb!

Hope i'll see youuuuuuuuuuuuu~

A thousand tears.

2011-03-08T17:31:00.002+08:00

DIDN'T GO SCHOOL TODAY. _l_ :(

So angryyyyyyyyy. Walao. :( Ok la, last night spended with christinegoh. Hehehehe. Tomorrow dai also must crawl to school. Kekeke, gg back watch lovebuffet. Bye!

F a i r y t a l e

2011-03-07T08:06:00.006+08:00

Nbcb, overslept! Everyone's at assembly at this time, and i still at home rotting. Hahaahaha. Kk still gg school at 9am++. Skool's ending at 2:30pm today. AND THERES PE. Walao.................. Plus detention also. Best la. Okokokok, come homey then continue! Bai.

(15:38PM)

School today fucking fun with vivian. HAHA. Went school at 9:30am. Cb lor damn suay, see till singh. I saw raynor kena also!!! HAHAHA. He fucking made me cut my nails. SO DULAN LAAAA. Lessons damn boring, hehehe. PE lesson did 20 pushup cos no bring clothes. Only did 13 hahhaa. Then did the stretching thing with vivian. Lied down with her, then keep laughing and laughing for no reason. LOOOOL. I can run 3 rnds today, hoho. First time!! Hehe, and vivian ah........ She's a mad girl with me today!!! So scary lor she :( Hmmmmm, then after school skipped detention!! HEHEHE. Had lunch with my dearest baby vivian! LOL. Walked to bus stop with her, andi and some guy too. Er..... i very bored. Hais. I want back my phone la sial. Today like whole class also know i no phone already!!!!! Piang ehhhhhhhhhh. Ok nvm, i want to see christine now now now. Hehe bye!

I FEEL SO SAD + SAD + SAD + FUCKING SAD. I DIDNT SEE YOU TODAY, NABEI. I CAN CRY AND CRY AND CRY LIKE MAD COS I DIDN'T SEE YOU. AHHHHHHHHHH !)($*&&^#%@$(%@(#! T.T

Past.

2011-03-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

Didn't go sports heat today. Sorry sorry x12409382763234. I'm really dying w/o my phone.......... Sigh mxm. Next time must hide my phone properly if i never go school liao. Nabei. Fuck that pubor hard hard upside down lor. Give back one day will die like that ! Kekekeke pray hard can wakie for school tomorrow. Without phone alarm really can die. Hungrygirl....... Papa went to dabao friedrice for me. Hehehe, ok. I want watch show. Zai jian ! =^^=

Still the same.

2011-03-01T22:54:00.005+08:00

Went school at 10am. Lessons were same. Livelesson, went counselling room with vivian. Talked alotalot crap with mdm chia. LOOOL. Went makan then 1n2 classroom with claire and chelsea, see them do hood banner. Left school with kelly, chelsea, yu ze, gabriel. Homed at 6pm. Bath + makan then went vivian's house find her, chelsea and andi. Watched some ghost show then subway and homed at 10pm+++! SO T I R E D NOW. Gg detention tml with ahhao and xiekang. HAHAHA. OK BYE.

Nothing ever changes.

2011-02-28T22:35:00.005+08:00

Last day of feb liao........ Time passes damn fast. :/

K whatever. Missed sch today. Rotted at home, and my phone's confiscated by some idiot. Zzzzzzz. Fucking dulan lor rly. Kekekeke, hungrygirl again now. Sh0 saddzxczx. Feel like ordering mac ltr. But, FATS............ T.T

I don't know what to doooo. Dying alrea, hais. Tsk tsk. Nvm, i want go pee. Hehehehe ok baibye!

Have i really lost you, lost all those that we once had together?

2011-02-27T22:56:00.005+08:00

Dinner with chelsea claire junhao rance bowen and some guy at entertainment. Walked to safra, played pool. Me claire chelsea left, went mac. Then walked arnd + chelsea bought conditioner. Saw some ppl, then went skygarden. Chelsea kept saying that the star was spinning, and it haz like blue and red light. Then suddenly say got green light LOL. Keep telling me and claire that got alien, wtfxxxx. Aft that, hsh at 10pm++. Gg pompom then kun. School tml, pray hard nth goes wrong. Bye!

Just like a statue.

2011-02-27T15:47:00.001+08:00

Worst weekend this month. Rot @ home, rot @ home, rot @ home........ Sorry for not updating. Lazy mxm. Kekeke bye.

I want to love again.

2011-02-20T18:33:00.004+08:00

Ytd went christine's chalet with chelsea, claire, vivian and alot of people there. fun mxm. played cards with yaosiang, jeffrey, johnathan leo and yong. sang birthday song for christine. face kena cake, tsk. then midnight went mac with christine, johnathanyong, ph, johnathanleo, yaosiang. ph sat infront of me, accidently burst the curry sauce. LOOOOOOL. his shirt kena. johnathan leo's wallet + iphone cover kena. like funny only. then the whole night ph keep disturbing me for one more shirt wtf. slept at 1 or 2am++ with christine. the room damn cramp. alot of peopleeeee. keep waking up halfway. got mosquito bite........ got up at 6/7am+. kept lying down, get up again. left chalet at 10:30am. breakfast tgt with them. sat 88 back to tpy, then home. didn't elaborate much. tired, sleepy. need sleep again, g'night bye! :)

Fourteenth.

2011-02-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

Monday (140211): Spended valentine's day with husband!

Tuesday (150211): Skipped school, stayed at home and ate like a pig. Fatgirl96 alr... :(

Wednesday (160211): Met chelsea and went school! Hahaha stayed back tgt with christine, vivian and peiwei. Talked abt future iphones. Damn cool, can make tchers into smaller size. And can fly. Can teleport also!! LOL!@#$%^&*(). Went home, dinner at sakaesushi with mom. Then went to meet my idiot. Hsh at 12am like that.

Thursday (170211): Didn't go school again. 9pm++ went to find husband. Went home at 11plus!

Won't be posting till Monday. Bye! ♥

Again and again.

2011-02-13T23:56:00.008+08:00

met chelsea at 3:30pm today (130211)! I ALMOST FELL DOWN AGAIN. NABEI! so dulan lorz. i don't want wear that slipper liao i swear!!!! lunched+dinner at lurvy curry. aft that went braddell mac then to 205 playground then to chelsea's house! ordered mac delivery + got chilli crab. stayed till 11pm, her mom sended me home. did facial with her today at her house, hohoho. Valentine's day CIP tml, 11am-11:30am! so excited. HAHA.

yesterday (120211), met christine. wanted to go find chelsea they all. then at her house lift saw her, claire, huili and peiwei. haha, walked to braddell mac in such a hot weather. dying for air-con y'know! hais. mac was full, so went kfc. after that, bused to claire's house for steamboat! watched kpop all those things~ HAHAHA. gambled. slacked. then decided to find weicong and co. went safra, played pool with christine. she won 1 rnd, another round i won. her bro came, i won him 1 rnd, and he won another rnd also. 2-2. hoho. i fell down....... in a sexy position also. ahhhhhh feel so retarded. the rest laughed!! tmd. nvm..... cabbed home and reached home at 1am! audi with a few idiots and slept at 4am.

talking on the phone now. thanks to malcolm and wj, got feel for pool now. tskkkk. should i go?! :(

haiyo, nvm. shall sleep!

its 12:42AM now. valentines' day! happygirl, so many wishes. hees. ok finally updated. bye! ♥

2011-02-10T15:50:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMYYYYYY. *inserts ♥♥♥ x130895710469829713*

hahahahaha. think i'm either staying at home whole day again. or maybe 2night gg out. can't stand beattysec, i want get out soon. tsk. lj school. wanted to go school late today, but malcolm don't want. hais, sian. ok tml then longlong post. bb.

You're gone, officially gone.

2011-02-09T23:37:00.005+08:00

Saturday (050211), aunts and cousin came over my house for dinner. stay @ home the whole day, i think. or if i didn't recall wrongly, on that day i went peiyi's house bainian + ton with ben & co. over there ah? wa jialat, old already, memory damn fail. sigh :(

Sunday (060211), went claire's house bainian. ate kfc + pizza. gambled, played twisters, game of life, xbox, hamster. went j8 pastamania at 7pm++. then homed.

Monday (070211), gave school a skip and rotted at home the whole day.

Tuesday (080211), went school. after school went around with kelly and vivian. after that waited for claire to finish class. went ish tgt, but that turban came and chase us to canteen. cb. makan, then went art room see vivian they all do banner for hood house. dinner with sheryl, claire, chelsea and vivian at 6pm++. suddenly rained! sat at coffeeshop till 8pm like that then left for home.

Today (090211), missed school again. too tired already. then, 5pm++ met mom for dinner with her boyf. saw two waiters, super cute. hahaha. when we left, the super cute one came to me said bye to me!! like shy only. the other one don't know die where. homed at 10pm. going sleep soon! have to go school tomorrow. detention. sighhhhhhhh. stupid turban! tomorrow confirm going to tell me grandfather stories again. cb. his 5mins will turn to 1 hour. damn dulan maximum! plus saliva alotalot one. piangeh. sorry for long+boring+unglam pix and post, bye.

You broke a promise and made me realize that it was all just a lie.

2011-02-05T02:09:00.006+08:00

photo's today (4/1/11). hahahha. no pix from my dad's friend house, hais!

woke up at 12pm++, prepared and went my dad's friend house @ yiochukang with mom and papa. like alot of ppl only! overall quite fun, but i didn't gamble todayyyyy. regretted not joining dad when they played. damn sad. sad sad sad! ok la, then papa sended me back to tpy. went inter at 5pm meet chelsea. makan @ mosburger. went walk arnd and take pix. 6pm plus went her house. cabbed home at 11pm! i'm so hungry. i want play mahjonggggg!!! pray hard tml got ppl come over play. hahaha. photo credits to chelseaaaaa. ok bye!

When will you talk to me again, ?

2011-02-04T00:29:00.005+08:00

yc and vivien. ♥

my dearest ahlian-daughter. *insert maximum hearts*

Starting from tuesday (2/2/11), 12pm mom & her boyf came and fetch me, took my iphone. LIKE FINALLY LA. then wednesday (3/2/11), went back kcs. met that stupid bastard ahhao at front gate first, then waited for claire. went in, mrs anthony on course. sian mxm. after that, went botakjones with claire and ahhao. saw chelsea, kelly, jieen and joy. sat with them then ahhao went off. aft that, bused home. went home change and went to find felicia, yc and vivien! 1 whole year never meet them leh! hahaha, 5pm++ came home, prepare and went for reunion dinner which sucked max. homed at 10pm plus. thursday (4/1/11), woke up damn early!!! zz. had mac for breakfast. prepared and went bainian. i'm supposed to be at dreamland now. don't know why i can't stop thinking of those things! pekcek la sial. tomorrow (4/2/11), going dad's friend there bainian then meeting chelsea for dinner i think. haha ok bye!

Happygirl_96. ♥

2011-01-30T23:25:00.004+08:00

Met chelsea, 2pm at mac. claire didn't come today. tsk. ate and cabbed to amk; stupid taxi driver. LOOOOL. waited for that bitch finish her facial, hahahhaa. then walked around. saw alot of people that i know. haha. bused to bugis, walked again saw cheewei. hahahaha. ate katong laksa for dinner. aft that walked back bugis street there, mrt-ed back to tpy. went basement foodcourt, talked. till chelsea's mom came. sended me home @ 8pm++. not attending school tml! hahaha. staying home help mom clean house for cny. stupid la, idk why they dont want hire maid. make me scream so many times just now. fuck spider and lizards life la. at least my ahma came save me from those stupid things. my mom just continue cleaning her thing!!!! angry maximum laaaa. LOLOL. going ntuc buy stuffs for cny with mom and dad already, haha bye! ♥

Noone will ever make me cry, like you did.

2011-01-30T02:10:00.002+08:00

No pix to post today!! running out of pictures already, sianxxxx. rotted at home yesterday (29/1/11). bored lika G6. going out later on (30/1/11), with Chelsea and Claire to amk!! hahahaha. 2night then conti post. oh yea, walked under the rain from centre to lor5 to dabao food for mom and dad. no shelter sia! nbcb. hope i won't get sick. -pray- talking to some childish no-hair boi now. HAHAHAA. ok bye. :)

Since the day I met you, no one else is even worth thinking about.

2011-01-29T00:26:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 1plus today. missed school, again. zzz. mom and her boyf came fetch me at 6pm++. went town. stupid la, all the carpark no space!! have to walk so long. nabei. bought heels from charles and keith. 3 tops and 1 shorts. i haven't buy bag! hafta shop for bag again. mummy say next week then go get iphone4 for me. tmd, damn long! nevermind. 4 more days to 2nd feb! so excited i swearrrrrr ajsefiwqpqm. finally can go back kcs! HAHAHA. maybe movie with sheryl and co. tml? haha i want go toilet, bye! ♥

I acted like it wasn't a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart.

2011-01-26T18:47:00.003+08:00

❝Let go.❞

Met chelsea at 7am. went canteen till singh blow whistle then went assembly. lessons were the same, but literature stomachpaindie. keep laugh like dog like that. mdmjasmine cute maximum. recess with clique. then chinese period sieh rabak, LOL. lazy elaborate. last lesson science. 2pm went detention room with vivian. bored until can rly bangwall. went ish then to 2n1 classroom. left school at 5pm++ with vian, just to come home charge phone to text some idiot!!! tsk. maybe going out later on. i want sleep first! bb.

Your happiness = my happiness. ♥

2011-01-25T18:02:00.004+08:00

Saturday's photos. hahahha missed school today again!!! angry maximum. tomorrow, die also must crawl to school. my god, tml thursday friday and monday all detentions. cb! fuck beatty's life. wednesday can go back khengchengschool already, happy + excited. can hug and kiss people again. heees. ok la, bb.

I hate it when I dream of you. Because after that, I always wake up to the reality where you are absent.

2011-01-24T20:29:00.003+08:00

Skipped school today, 'cause lessons end at 2:30pm + 2hrs of singh's face = 5pm then can officially be dismissed, sian. Tomorrow then give you all long long post ok bye.

You're the reason. ♥

2011-01-23T00:43:00.006+08:00

OKAY, firstly photos are not uploaded yet. once uploaded will spam ok. heheh!

Woke up today, saw chelsea's texts. hahahha, met her at blk 8 at 1pm. her mom drove us to the dental clinic. saw her put the metal thing only, havent put wire tsk. then huili came. waited for her, aft that went makan at ION. went book shop walkwalk, claire came! wanted to watch movie, but all the seats were booked alrea! fml. huili left at 6plus. then me, claire and chelsea went walk again. ALOT OF CUTE + SHUAI PPL AT TOWN TODAY. really, alottttt. hahahaha, then took some stupid balloon that is about valentine one...... which flew away in the end!! walao. some random guys walked pass laughed and said " ohhhh~ fei liao fei liao *laughs* " LOL tsk. accompanied Claire eat dinner @ pepper lunch. walked again! then stopped at fareast there the bus-stop. 143-ed back to tpy. went skygarden slack + camwhore. rofl @ the second floor thing! both of their faces damn epic and priceless i swear. LOLOL. but i also actually scared, heeees. came home then just nice dad was watching incredible tales, the moment i open the door, the fucking scary music played. i fucking scream like one mad dog. LMAO. pity my neighbours..... heees. :$

i want to see you ♥ again, on monday :(

Reality where feelings doesn't matter, and love that breaks your heart. ♥

2011-01-20T22:29:00.006+08:00

Went school, saw christine. walked to 1n2 find that guy tgt. make me super dulan only zz. went class, then lessons were usual. assembly @ last lesson. went hive find vivian alot of times! tsk. went ISH slack with sists and others + watch soccer match. christine came back, went outside school find ahpei and co. tgt. LOL. i also don't know we go there for what. went back school then played bball awhile. watched the others play match. left school at 7pm plus. bused home with christine. too tired to post. shall rest alrea, bye! :)

The only one, you.

2011-01-19T17:55:00.004+08:00

I WENT SCHOOL TODAY! so happy la. went class, then went 2T1 there wait for ahpei with vivian. went assembly. lessons were the same! recess with clique. i got stared by singh! LOL. accompanied ahpei walk one big round back to class. stupid singh! he went second floor first before i did. suay max.

then he said "i thot i asked you go back class so long ago alr?"

me: "people go toilet cannot? you go try go toilet re-tie hair and stare at yourself in the mirror first then walk back here, see whether you faster then me ornot la."

singh: "when i ask you go back, you better go back. stop giving excuses. you bring alot of trouble to this sch you know anot?"

me: "eh is you all ask me come back leh boss." then i walked away LOL.

then when we sat down, singh said "pls be a normal student la girl."

me: "i alr very normal." then i smiled bigbig @ him. LOL. like cute only. valerie and zhiying kena gan. lmao. then chinese lesson, aft that maths. last lesson science. stand behind deesiao iman, sya, hanis and kevin for half-period. heees! like fun only. aft school, went canteen. then went 1T1 class sitsit while waiting for 1n2(ahqi) to be dismissed. 1T1 ONE OF THE BOY REALLY SUPA CUTE, i swear. LOL. then walked to bus stop with kevin, his friend and christine.

@bus stop, some random sec1 kid came chasing for his bus. he bus just went off. he jitao "_l_" at the bus. DAMN EPIC. laughed like fuck. took 231 altogether. he sat arnd christine's area. he jitao guailan us when we never even talk to him. wtf la!!!! still say till NT people, till sieh sacarstic. sibei guailan + xialan + laolan. really buey tahan! don't want say alrea, dulan sia. the part where kevin's friend say he racist. really funny maximum. LOLLMAOROFL. then, went inter shopped for christine's ny shoes. next week's my turn! heeees. hao la, enough posting. bye.

I just wish, really really wish i'll wake up on one morning, and i'll forget about you and our memories.

2011-01-19T00:10:00.002+08:00

didn't attend school on tuesday. miss school alotalot!!! i guess sec1's missed me today, hahahaha. 'cause i didn't go their class and deesiao. heees, fever go away please. :(

so hungry now.... shall go find food and makan. bye.

Do you know how much i miss you? Are you gonna love her, like how you loved me? Sigh.

2011-01-17T06:06:00.006+08:00

18days more to cny, 30days more to valentines and 1mth 19days to christine's birthday.

i keep coughing until cannot visit dreamland. fml la. there goes another night of my beauty sleep~ tsktsk. like a sian only, later on need see singh's face for two hours. a few more hours to school. walao, tired like fuck. i don't like mosquitoessssssssss. i want them extinct!!!! dulan maximum. one night jitao got 12 bites. ok la, come home then continue post. bye.

editted, 17/01/11, 5:18pm.

went sch at 8am. lessons were as usual. recess kept following malcolm with sharon, 'cause he want run. LOL. aft that, went sec1 classes deesiao. went back class and continue lessons. last period P.E. cb 1st floor to 4th floor all the zabor toilet all cleaning. need walk till canteen toilet. LOL. i changed first. then christine, chelsea, sharon, claire came. sharon keep want her kiss. tsk. then christine raped vivian, lmao. we all went inside her cubicle. haven't change yet. LOL. keep push here and there. then someone press until the shower thing. uniform and shoe got wet. T.T

laughed like mad dogs liddat. LOL. went for PE. i grew 2cm taller!!!!! ran one round, and walked another round with vivian. aft school, sat at canteen. volleyballers went off...... left me, vivian and peiwei. then peiwei also left. join sunyan sitsit. then arnd 3plus, decided to go home~

stupid sunyan, walk halfway with us then he went his own way. tsk. aft that, h.s.h. still sick, fml. skipped today's detention again. tml rly need see singh's face for two hours!! zzz. sua, k bye. :'\

Remember those times when you took care of me when i fell sick? Replay them again, please.

2011-01-16T00:00:00.005+08:00

IM SICK IM SICK IM SICK IM SICK.

but im still eating chocolatessss. how? dying alrea. :*(

kcs on cny in 2 more weeks and fuck mosquitoes life la. keep bite bite bite bite. cb. irritating max. LOL. should i audi? or go back maple? tsk, sua. today's outing cancelled. tml ahben bring me 2 see doct then going shop with mom. haha, k bye. ♥

i hope i'll see you again, at least one more time. its almost 1 year alrea. life sucks alot without you, sumpah. sigh~ should i be happy that i have a reason to let you go, or sad that you're officially gone. finally a fullstop between us?

I wished i can stop waiting like an idiot for something, that will never happen.

2011-01-14T23:13:00.005+08:00

I want this kind of roooooooooooom. :(

I'm now alone at home, sick somemore! never thought i broke down so fast la, fml. tomorrow shopping with mom. ~~(F> a kind soul to accompany me!)~~ tsk. today, almost late for school. actually bell ring alrea, i walked in, but the counsellors never stop me. HAHA. mdm see and koh called me and czm out. then, mdm see still say want give me good-behavior sticker! lmao. mdm chia also want give. funny maximum. school was as usual. waited for claire and chelsea to finish training. ate dinner, then bused home with claire; and h.s.h~ bye! :)

If i told you, will you make the effort to ask me to stay and wait?

2011-01-13T20:34:00.003+08:00

SO TIRED SO TIRED x1234567890!!!! went find czm, kellyn and megan at 7plusplus. wanted to go sch late at arnd 8plus one. stupid singh. wtf la fml. kkkkk then went art class, i got damn high. HAH. recess with clique, walked pass all the sec1 classes. waved at them inside, the first class fucking dao me!!!! nbcb. i think only 1E4, machiam the whole class wave back at me. HAHA. i heard one zabor say, "that senior siao isit??" LOL. but i still dislike this yr sec1's. heeees! then went class. chinese lesson; fuck the tcher's life upside down. then went for house meeting @ assembly. sian ttm! need keep avoiding mdm see. ZZZZZ. aft school, makan at canteen with sists. i kissed sharon today HOHO. i keep want kiss alot people today!! HA. disturb them, fun max. then i turned arnd and saw hanis. he also give me that kiss look, wtf!! LOL copy me. aft that went ISH with claire, vivian, sheryl and chelsea. play volleyball awhile, then sat there. till...... 6pm plus, they ended training. DAMN LONG I TELL YOU. i got play bball today too, happy girl! went dinner with claire and chelsea. then bused home with claire. lastly, h.s.h. so tired today, i kept yawning since hist period. shall turn in early today!! k3k3 bye. ♥

I DREAMT OF HIM TODAY. i swear i was damn happy ttm when i woke up!!! fucking sweet dream. omg, i can like sleep forever dreaming about that la. only if it was real lor, zzz. :(

I fall for wrong people, and wrong times.

2011-01-12T21:09:00.006+08:00

Yesterday (11/1/11), went school. got caught by that stupid tcher. tsk!!! caught for hair colour, nails, hair, skirt. buey tahan la sia. projectwork, i got high in class. LOL. then aft school, sat @ canteen with czm, ahqi and christine. then went arnd with czm, and hsh.

Today (12/1/11), school again. early in the morning i got high already, HAHA. recess went mum-mum with sists ♥. sec 1's this year are supa cute. stare at us, and run. LOL!@#$%^

chinese period, me and vivian sat tgt. drew her file, and mine. then we comparing who draw spongebob nicer, tcher take away LOL!!!! then i drew penguin, HE ALSO TAKE. rofl. then, drew on the zuo ye, he came and take up, he say look like vivian. LMAO. i likey chinese period nao. but cfm another year of failing!! tsk. nvm. science, last lesson @ practical lab. fun ttm. LOL. aft school, find miss nadiah then sat in the canteen. went off with claire, ahqi and christine. walked under the rain. my whole hoodie wet. having cough nao. i get damn damn damn tired aft school this year. reach home always jitao go kun. tsk. i havent do hwk yet omgggg. fml... i need go do alrea. T_T

ok, bye.

2011-01-10T14:48:00.003+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥

Came home from sch. gg continue in beatty, fml.... become schoolgurl96 again!! sian ttm sia. i havent buy anyth yet and they expect me go tml. wtf is wrong with them la sia. k3k3 nvm. hope malcolm going accompany me to sch tomorrow. confirm alot ppl stare... -inserts sad face- *emo*

ok, my heart rly sinking damn deep nao. tml got school omgwtf. machiam back to p1, have that feeling.... LOL. my ass is damn sore since morning. i've been sitting infront of comp for 24hrs sia.. back also pain already, tsk. ok la i want audi alrea. bb.

You've found someone, it breaks my heart.

2011-01-10T00:45:00.003+08:00

audi with carabelle last night. HOHO. nowadays mood rly damn cui maximum.... T_T

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, nvm. bb.

Are you satisfied now, that i can't find my own happiness? Thanks alot.

2011-01-08T22:55:00.004+08:00

OWNED XIAOHONG AHPEK LAST NIGHT, HOHO. :$

Hello, still no mood. sigh. ok bye.

Your back view seems so familiar, its like i've been seeing it since i knew you..

2011-01-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

im craving for sweets and white chocolate now. ;(

fuck all this feelings im feeling right now. why did you have to fucking turn all my regrets into pain. did you realise how much it hurts to keep begging you to come back? zz, pms. bb.

i miss you, and now you belong to her. thanks so much for walking away just like that. really.

It kills to know, the person you loved so much loves someone else now.

2011-01-06T13:03:00.005+08:00

i just wanted to say i miss kcs (2009) and maple. kthxbye. :)

i was the one who held on since the beginning till now. i begged, i cried, i hurted so much. did you even realise i was there too....?

I'm sorry i can't be happy for you, it really hurts. And i don't know what to do..

2011-01-05T02:38:00.007+08:00

Hi. i have no mood. i am notttttttt going back beatty. shall apply for homeschool/transfer, when i'm 16, fucking quit studying. make me so pekcek only. tsk. stupid dm. whats with the "16 year old then can officially quit school" sia?! nabeiiiiii. dulan ttm. k sua. i keep telling my mama that kimhyunjoong is my boyfriend and i said he's gna be her son-in-law. heheeeeees. LOL k bb.

我开始恨你了，对不起。。我不是想要这样的。我的心真的很痛。你明白吗？ sigh。

Gone. Everything also gone. Fuck everything.

2011-01-04T23:32:00.003+08:00

fml la pcb. fucking no mood. i don't want post for today already. ZZZZZZZ. shall go rant on private blog and vent anger on audi. KTHXBYE. _l_

Another heartbreak this year. Another piece gone.

2011-01-04T03:52:00.005+08:00

Others have school in like... 3 more hours. HAHA. I've been rewatching BOF for three times. And i still cry at the same scenes. WTF. Kimhyunjoong superrrrr k3wt !! That stupid jandi don't want him, might as well give me !!!! And my second ear hole almost closed, fmlfmlfml. I didnt know the earring dropped. Fucking scare me. LOL. Ltr going down beatty at 0130pm to meet czm and going find others. Hehx. I don't know what to do now. So bored so bored. I scared ltr i sleep, then cannot wake up. Sian maxxxxxx y'know !!!! Who want spam call me? Nolajk. Hehe, don't want continue already. Bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb, and i love kimhyunjoong. One day i will srsly go crazy over him. Heeeeeeeeeeees. Bye! :-D

可以跟我讲话前吗。。。？我真的很想念你。我很怕今年你就真的要走了。不要丢下我好不好？ sigh。